Tus disculpas no sirven de nada si no cambias

Si alguien es una persona que perdona, soy yo. 

We’re all human beings. People make mistakes and nobody is perfect. I get it, I really do. 

Nunca te pedí la perfección. Nunca te pedí que fueras impecable y siempre fui comprensivo cuando hiciste algo mal y te arrepentiste después. 

You could even say that I am an empath. I know that you can sometimes find yourself in a situation where you do something you normally wouldn’t. 

Some would say that I am a forgiving person, as well. I’m not someone who throws people out of their lives on a first strike.

In fact, I’m widely known as a professional giver of segundas oportunidades. En todo momento me esfuerzo por conocer su punto de vista, escuchar su versión de los hechos y ponerme en su lugar. 

However, don’t you dare take me as a fool. I may be many things but I’m not a stupid girl. You see, my patience has its limits. 

Sí, sigo a mi corazón en la mayoría de las ocasiones. Dejo que mis emociones prevalezcan en mis procesos de toma de decisiones más veces de las que debería.

Nevertheless, I have a brain as well. I’m capable of reasoning things and of seeing the truth through my rose tinted glasses. 

Basically, what I’m trying to tell you is that I am well aware of the fact that apologies are only valid when you never repeat your mistakes. 

En cualquier otra ocasión, no significan nada. Tienen valor cero cuando las utilizas como excusas para justificar tu comportamiento.

No tiene sentido que me pidas perdonarte if you don’t plan on changing your ways.

No point in asking for a second chance if you’ll go back to your old ways as soon as the opportunity arises.

However, that is exactly what you’ve been doing all along. In fact, it seems that this kind of behavior has become a habit of yours. 

Cometes un error, me tratas mal y hieres mis sentimientos. En cuanto ves que quiero echarte de mi vida, te pones de rodillas.

All of a sudden, you act like you’re ready to do whatever it takes just for me to take you back.

You make endless promises about how you’ll change, how you’ll never repeat your mistake, and how this is the last time we’ll be in this situation.

So, silly me forgives you. The truth is that I don’t do it because I truly believe you.

De hecho, lo hago porque quiero creerte. Porque te quiero tanto que busco una excusa para perdonarte.

Así que eso es exactamente lo que hago. Te acepto de nuevo y te doy otra segunda oportunidad. 

Sin embargo, al cabo de un tiempo, cuando estás seguro de tu lugar en mi vida, vuelves a las andadas. 

Haces exactamente lo que juraste que nunca harías: repites el mismo error del que supuestamente estabas tan arrepentido y acabas pidiéndome perdón. 

Durante años, tú y yo hemos estado atrapados en este ciclo sin fin y no veía salida. 

Desde hace años, you’ve been breaking my heart and each time you did, you expected one apology to magically glue it together, so you could keep on crushing it.

Bueno, querida, tengo que decepcionarte y decirte que esta práctica ha llegado a su fin. You’re out of second chances – and most importantly, you’ve run out of my forgiveness. 

No, I’m not doing this because I’ve lost the ability perdonar. My heart is still kind and full of love. It just doesn’t have any more room for you. 

I’ve stopped forgiving you because you don’t deserve it. In fact, I’ve chosen to stop doing it simply because none of your apologies were ever real. 

You never wanted my forgiveness because you were really sorry. You didn’t ask for it because you repented your choices or because you realized you had made a mistake. 

En su lugar, you kept on apologizing because you wanted a chance to keep on hurting me. Well, my darling, that is something I won’t be allowing you to do anymore.