From the moment I met you, I knew you were different. You were not like anyone I had ever dated before. You were special, and you changed something in me. And for that, I’ll always be thankful.
With you, for the first time in my life, I felt what it was like to feel a true, genuine connection. After having had so many guys that were gone so fast after getting what they wanted from me… you showed me that it didn’t have to be that way.
You showed me that I deserve to be appreciated and loved. And with you, I learned never to let myself be taken for granted, like some cheap piece of meat. I finally saw my value.
I am still not quite sure how to feel about these lingering emotions that I have towards you… It’s like you’re engraved in me, and I have to learn how to move on, even with the thought of you still following me everywhere I go.
Sometimes I wish these feelings would go away. They confuse me… You are no longer in my life, but a part of you still lives with me. I guess it’s because you taught me what true, unselfish love feels like.
It’s hard to make peace with the fact you’re gone, and all I am left with are these uncertain feelings that take me over from time to time. But I love that they are all good feelings.
I feel like our relationship has taught me everything I needed to know. I have to look at it that way in order to be okay with losing you.
Before you, I was a far cry from the girl I am today. I was a mess. I didn’t know how to stand up for myself. I always accepted way less than I deserved, and any attention was good attention—even though it really wasn’t.
You made me laugh. You made me smile whenever I thought of you. You were always there when I needed you, and I never felt like I was a burden. You made me feel so easy to be loved.
After all the heartbreak I’d been through, and after being numb to the entire world for so long, you made me break out of my shell again. You climbed the walls that I put up around my heart and made me come to the surface again. I was alive again. And oh so happy.
I can never thank you enough for that.
You showed me that somebody could be interested in me, after having convinced myself that I was so unlovable. It was hard for me to believe that you were genuinely into me, but you really were. You softened me up.
I was always the girl who pictured herself being married and starting a family… but never thought I would find somebody who would want those things with me. Until you came along.
Even though God had other plans for us and separated us for reasons I am still trying to understand, I won’t fight it. I know that it is the way it’s meant to be. Our love was precious, and if are meant to end up together, we will find our way back.
You are too special to me to just forget you. You are not like all those other boys. You showed me what a real man was.
When things got difficult, you fought for us. You didn’t flinch. You didn’t leave me alone in my attempts to save us. You were not afraid to express your softer side in order to show me you loved me enough. And that is what makes you a real man.
Circumstances got in the way, and our time together was cut way too short, and for that, I will always be sorry. But hey, we can’t say we didn’t fight. God knows we gave it our all. Our relationship was beautiful and the only one in my life that made me feel good about myself.
I am not crying myself to sleep. I do not regret a single thing. I have not lost my faith in love. If anything, you are the reason why I believe in the happily ever after.
And now when I see you out in the world, I don’t hide. I look at you, and I feel a sense of pride that I got to call you mine. I feel confident in the woman I have become with you by my side. I feel glad to have met you and that you have left a lasting impact on me as a woman.
You know how to treat a woman. And you made sure I knew that. So I don’t look at us as a failure. I look at my experience with you as a blessing in disguise.
If it wasn’t for you, I would probably still settle for half-assed excuses for love, and I wouldn’t be half the woman I am today. I know what to expect, and I will not accept anything less.
And if the world decides to reconnect us again, I promise I will give it my all not to lose you again. You are one in a million, and I will never see you as anything but. I trust that whoever is supposed to be together will always gravitate towards one another.
And that is why I’ll always be glad I met you. You taught me how to love myself again, and that is something I’ll always be grateful for.
