Dear life,

Please don’t give up on me today. I still have so much to offer, I still have things to do. I know, I’ve been wasting you lately. I know that I haven’t left my room for days, that I haven’t eaten properly in weeks, but I’ll get back on my feet, I promise. Just give me time.

Dear life, I’ll get up, I promise. I’ll fight my demons once more. It’s just that I couldn’t find the strength to face you lately. You’ve been pretty rough on me, you know.

You showed me what it looks like to be beaten down, to lose everything I held dear. You showed me how it feels to want to fight, but not be able to. You showed me what it feels to carry the sadness of the whole world on my shoulders.

But I’ll show you that I’m stronger than that. I’ll show you that I can fight everything you throw at me. I’ll show you that I still have some of me left.

Dear life, I’ll move on, I promise. I’ll let go of the past, I’ll let go of the pain. I know I stayed stuck for too long, but I just missed him so much.

I missed his laugh, I missed the way he would hug me, I missed the feeling of his lips on my forehead. But I’ll move on, I swear. He already did it, I can do it too.

I’ll find a way to embrace this single life, I’ll appreciate this second chance you gave me. I promise, just please, don’t give up on me yet.

Dear life, I’ll appreciate myself, I promise. I’ll find a way to love me once again. I know I can do it, I know I can see my worth. It’s just, it’s been a rough year. You know it has.

But I’ll try harder than ever. New year, new/old me, right? I’ll learn to love my failures as much as I love my successes. I’ll learn to love my silly broken heart, as much as I loved it when it was in one piece.

I’ll learn to love my scarred soul, as much as I loved it when it was perfectly intact. I’ll learn to love my sick body as much as I loved it when it was healthy. I’ll learn to love myself the way I never knew.

Dear life, I’ll appreciate you more, I promise. I’ll wake up every day grateful to see the sunshine. I’ll go to bed every night, loving the fact that I got to see the stars one more time.

Just please, don’t give up on me. Give me one more chance to stand on my own two feet, give me one more chance to win this war. Give me one more chance to breathe in without help.

Give me one more chance to walk on my own, without anyone by my side. I promise, I’ll appreciate you more. I’ll appreciate myself. I’ll appreciate every coffee I get to drink, I’ll love every Subway sandwich I get to eat.

Just give me one more chance to climb mountains before I go.

Dear life, I’ll follow my dreams, I promise. I’ll finish that book I started years ago. I’ll jump out of an airplane. I’ll visit the Grand Canyon once more. Just give me the chance to follow my dreams.

Give me time to heal, so I can prove to you that I’m worth it. Give me a chance to adopt a child, since you denied me the chance of ever having one of my own.

Give me a chance to give my love to someone who deserves it, you know I have so much of it still in me. Just give me a little bit more time and I’ll show you that I won’t waste it anymore.

Dear life, please don’t give up on me. I have so much to offer, you know I do. I have so many people to meet, I have so many places to see. I have so many regrets to correct.

I never saw a Broadway show with my mom. I never finished that chess game with my dad. I never got to visit my brother at college. I never got to fall in love so hard that I’d forget how it feels to feel sad. I never got the chance to hold a child in my arms.

Dear life, please, don’t give up on me, because I’m not ready to give up on you.