This is the year when I will finally put myself first.

This is the year when I’m going to be selfish. I’m going to act the way I like because that is what makes me happy.

If I want to, I’m going to go for a cup of coffee all by myself, I’m going to read something and not look up because I don’t want anybody disturbing me. I’m going to do it because it makes me happy. I’m not going to feel bad for not saying hello to someone I don’t want to.  

If I want to, I’m going to spend a night awake only to see the beautiful sunrise in the morning. I won’t give a damn if others think that’s crazy or weird. Looking at the sunset means a lot to me. It calms me down, it makes me think about my life and what I want to do with it.

That is just one of the things that makes me happy and I decided that this is the year to make all the things I want come true.   

I’m going to ignore my ex’s call like he blew off mine when I was interested in him. He didn’t have the time to talk to me then. Well, I don’t have the time to talk to him now.

I solemnly swear I’m done putting everybody else’s needs before my own because I’m done breaking my own heart. I just want to be happy.  

This year it’s time for me to give all the love I’ve got to myself.

I’m going to be more organized. I want to spend every second of my life the way I deserve it. I want to make every minute count. I don’t want anything to go to waste. I don’t want my life to go to waste.

I’m going to drink crazy amounts of coffee and eat the food I want to eat. I’m not going to watch myself and restrain myself. I’m going to do everything that makes me happy because life is too short not to.

I know that destiny has its plan for me and I can’t do anything to change it, which is why I might as well enjoy my life while it lasts.

 

Girl blowing a kiss and holding her braids up

 

In 2019, I’m going to finally leave my past behind.

I’m not going to dwell on my past actions. I’m not going to spend nights in tears wondering where I went wrong. I want to focus on what awaits me. I want to focus on this new year that will open all the doors for me. I will use this year to bury my past and focus on my future—a future in which I will start appreciating myself.

In 2019, everyone will get a new chance.

This is my time to get a fresh start. This is my time to give myself a new chance to live my life the way I want to. I’m finally ready to forgive myself and move on to new, exciting things that are waiting for me.

In 2019, I will stop breaking my own heart.

I will look back on the previous year and all the heartbreaks I’ve had. I will forgive myself for feeling lost and losing things that were important to me. I will give myself another chance to love again.

I will forget the pain and I will open my heart and my mind to something new and, more importantly, to something that makes me happy.

This year I’m finally aware that I deserve everything I can think of. This year I’m finally aware that I’m responsible for making my own destiny. This year I decided I won’t be scared anymore. This year I’m the one who matters.

In 2019, I’m going to love myself.

I realized that up until now, I was worried about everybody else. I went the extra mile for people who turned their backs on me when I needed them. I tore myself apart because I wanted to please everybody else, which left me unhappy and none of those people cared about it. They were being selfish and they were happy—unlike me.

The only thing that I learned is that it’s every woman for herself. I learned that happiness comes from within. I learned that if you are not satisfied with yourself, you won’t be happy. I learned that if you don’t love yourself, you won’t be able to love anybody.

This year I’m going to love myself so I can love everyone else.