I suppose we all have some rough days, right? Well, this is one of the most difficult days of my life. I have to say goodbye to the man I’m still not quite ready to let go of. Even writing this letter is heartbreaking for me.

To be honest, I’m ready because I know it’s finally time to start thinking about myself. But my heart isn’t. My heart’s been ruling my mind for too long and I can’t allow it to do so anymore.

You know how the saying goes, “The heart wants what it wants,” and unfortunately we can’t do much about it.

I know it’s not possible to make your heart stop loving someone. I know because I tried. I tried so hard to put my feelings aside and let go of you many times, but I just couldn’t do it.

You just can’t make your heart do anything and trust me, no one wishes that weren’t true more than me.

No matter how much I tried, I couldn’t forget you. I couldn’t make my heart stop loving you. My mind was telling me that I have to let you go but my heart was fighting tooth and nail against it.

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That constant battle between my mind and heart has become truly unbearable. I just can’t take it anymore. I’ve had to make this final decision and my heart will have to come to terms with it eventually.

I know it’s for my own good. I know that my mind has actually saved me from getting my heart broken for the – oh my God, I even stopped counting how many times.

My heart will need some time more to process this and understand why I had to do it – why I had to leave the man I loved more than anything else in this world.

It’ll also need some time to heal. And that’s fine. I only hope that one day it’ll be ready to let someone new in. I hope my heart will be able to love someone again one day.

This wasn’t your mistake only, you have to know that. We both made mistakes and this is the outcome. It’s just time to go our separate ways.

Despite those mistakes, we also had a great time together and shared so many beautiful moments. Our love was always so special. It’s hard to forget it. Actually, it’s impossible.

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That was before you stopped fighting. That was before you gave up on our love, before you stopped loving me.

You still swear that you love me, but I can’t believe you anymore. I don’t see that spark in your eyes when you look at me. I just can’t feel it in your touch anymore.

I know that nothing in life is constant. Everything has its limits and everything comes to an end. I know that things change.

You changed. Our love changed. For us, everything changed. However, I will always remember our love with a smile.

I’ve always known that people can stop loving each other and they can separate. It’s just that I thought that we’d never be one of those couples. I truly believed that we were “for the rest of our lives.”

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I’ll always remember the day we first met. The first time I held your hand. The first time you wrapped your arms around me. Our first kiss.

The first time I could see in your eyes that you’d completely fallen in love with me.

Even if I don’t fall in love ever again, I’ll always be happy because I was privileged to meet true love once.

That’s why I also want to thank you. You showed me what true love is. You showed me what it means to be truly appreciated and cherished by someone, even though at the end of our relationship, it changed.

One day, my heart will heal. I’ll help it glue back those broken pieces and it’ll be able to continue. It’ll be able to let someone new in. Whatever’s coming next, I’m sure that you’ll always remain in my heart.

Farewell, my dear. Take good care of yourself. I hope God will give you everything you ask for. My love, my only love, goodbye forever.

A Farewell Letter To The Man I'm Still Not Actually Ready To Say Goodbye To