I still have the image of you walking out of the door that one last time carved in my mind. It was the day when someone I believed was my forever person gave up on us. It was the day I got my heart broken in a way I never imagined one could be broken. It was shattered in pieces and every one of those pieces cut me and hurt me. Every one of those pieces screamed your name.
I never thought I would love again, I never thought someone would love me. In every man, I could find pieces of you, in every one of them I looked for you. One had your smile, the next had your voice, and the third one had your way of walking. I was seeing pieces of you everywhere I went.
I never believed that could happen to me, that someone I loved more than I loved myself would simply walk away. Without even looking back. Without even checking back on me. “A clean cut is the best and you know it is. We’re just not good together, this is not what I want.” A clean cut was only good for you, because I needed to know how you were doing. I needed to know if was there anything else I could do. But I guess not, since you gave me a clean cut so easily. It was me you didn’t want, not a relationship.
But now I guess I should thank you for making me feel like I wasn’t good enough. Because, you see, I realized that I can be better. But not for you, for some other man or for anyone else. The only person I need to get better for is me. Everything I did, I did it for me. Every gym session, every course I took, every therapy appointment I had, it was all for me. And finally, when I fell in love with myself, I fell out of love with you.
I should also thank you for giving up on me, for giving up on us. Because I had the chance to meet someone who fights for me, who makes it his morning ritual putting a smile on my face. I finally have someone who wants me, who wants us. I finally have someone who loves me the way I love myself.
I met someone who makes me feel like I’m the most beautiful woman in the world. I met someone who watches romantic comedies with me, who brings me coffee in bed and takes care of my needs. I have someone who respects me and makes sure we’re equal. I finally have someone who never lets me to go to bed angry. Now that I look back, I don’t know how I could ever believe that you were the one. I don’t know how I could ever believe that what we had was true love. It was love, but not a love worth dying for. Not a love worth fighting for, and you were right when you left.
Thank you for giving me a chance to meet someone who makes me feel like I’m the only woman in the world, someone who has eyes only for me. For giving me a chance to finally be with someone and feel wanted. When you left, I couldn’t imagine myself happy again. I couldn’t imagine having someone who wants me, loves me and makes me feel like the luckiest woman alive. But I am, and I have you to thank for that. Because, if you had never let me go, I never would have had the chance to meet the love of my life.
Thank you for letting me go, because now I’m perfect for someone else. Thank you for letting me go, because I found someone who makes me want to stay. Because I had the chance to find my happily ever after. I hope you found yours as well.