Procurar-me-eis em todos os outros, mas não me encontrareis

She’s the girl who would have done anything for you. The kind of girl who bent over backward to make you happy. She’s the kind of girl who put your needs before her own. She would have loved you unconditionally.

She’s the girl who gave you cuddles and love when you were feeling down and out, or even just because. She’s the girl who deu-te o seu corpo when she was afraid to do so. She’s the girl who gave you her heart, soul and mind because you convinced her to let go and she did it willingly because you ‘loved her’.

She’s the girl who loved to sit up talking to you until the early hours just to make you smile. She’s the girl who made you stare at her so intensely because she was herself. She’s the girl who would make a fool out of herself just to hear you laugh. She’s the naive girl who believed every word that you told her because she started to fall for you. She’s the idiot who continued to love you after you treated her so badly.

She’s the girl you will spend the rest of your life searching for.

O que não reparou foi que a rapariga mesmo à vossa frente. When she looked deep into your eyes, this girl was looking for you to love her like she loved you. The girl who hugged you so tightly because she was so scared that if she let you go, you wouldn’t come back. You were too egocêntrico e egoísta ver a rapariga que está à sua frente a fugir porque pensou que ela estaria sempre lá, acontecesse o que acontecesse!

Essa rapariga estaria lá se tivesses aberto os olhos e a tivesses tratado com o amor e o respeito que ela merecia. Se a tivesses tratado como a tua namorada e não como um pedaço de lixo descartável depois de terminares.

She was the girl who never asked for much from you, only a fraction of your time. She’s the girl who understood your other commitments ocorreu sobre ela and she gave you all the space you needed even though it killed her. She’s the girl who only wanted a simple text now and then when you were too busy to say that you loved her’ or ‘missed her’. She’s the girl who craved the attention you used to give her. The girl who accepted that ela nunca seria uma prioridade na sua vida but settled to get pieces of you as and when you’d give them.

A sua filha nunca devia ter-se conformado tanto tempo como se conformou. She’s the girl who deserves to be someone’s number one priority, she’s the girl who deserves to be loved unconditionally just like she loved you. She deserves the world and you could have given her that. It was right in front of your face. She didn’t deserve to be left out in the cold all alone because abandonaste-a tão cruelmente que ela não teve outra escolha senão ir-se embora. Partiu-a depois de ela ter acabado de se arranjar.

This girl didn’t want to walk away, she gave you so many chances for you to understand what she was asking from you. It wasn’t a lot! She never asked you for half as much as she gave to you. This girl wanted to be needed, wanted and cared for. She was NEVER a dependent or ‘clingy’ girl—you confused your past relationships with one that was based purely on affection and love. You allowed your past to ruin the a melhor coisa que te podia ter acontecido. This girl didn’t want to feel so alone when she was with you. This girl soon realized that your love was a lie, you couldn’t have loved her like she loved you because if you had, you would have done anything to keep her.

She’s the girl who laughed at your hurtful jokes about something she was insecure about just so you wouldn’t know she was crying inside. She’s the girl who started to sacrifice her own happiness just so you could have yours. She’s the girl who não esperava nada de si e, na verdade, não recebi nada. She’s the girl who would lie awake at night beside you, sobbing because you had stopped embracing her in your arms but would instead turn your back on her. She’s the girl you got into a relationship with, the one you led to believe you wanted.

She’s the girl you broke, whose heart you tore into two, all because you didn’t realize what you had—you had her at, “Morning beautiful.” It became all about you and never about her, never about ‘us’. She’s the girl you slowly stopped contacting, hoping she would just ‘go away’, when once all you did was overwhelm her. She’s the girl who hoped you weren’t lying when you told her you ‘loved’ her. She’s the girl who waited by her phone for the text she knew she would never receive. She’s the girl whose heart would be in her mouth when you canceled seeing her. She’s the girl who once shined so brightly but your harsh interior rapidly dimmed her light.

Disseste à rapariga que amas (que amas) que ela te esgota porque é uma pessoa feliz e alegre, a rapariga por quem disseste que farias tudo, a rapariga a quem imploraste que te deixasse entrar e não fugisse. A rapariga que disseste que merecia mais e que lhe podias mostrar isso. A rapariga que fizeste tua namorada quando, no fundo, querias uma arremesso.

A rapariga que confiava em ti, a rapariga que um dia beijaste na testa e abraçaste.

She’s the girl you wouldn’t open up to, who you wouldn’t let in, even though she tried so hard to be the one to ‘get you’. She’s the girl who you pushed away with your insecurities and inability to be honest about your demons. She’s the girl you rejected again and again toward ‘the end,’ with your cold and detached demeanour.

She’s the girl you wouldn’t become emotionally available for. A rapariga com quem nunca saíste, a rapariga em quem nunca pensaste realmente, a rapariga que ainda te amava e todos os teus defeitos. She’s a boa rapariga who you ‘ghosted’ because you are a coward who never grew a backbone enough to let her go.

ESSA RAPARIGA ERA EU.

Eu era a rapariga que tornaria a tua vida melhor. Eu era a rapariga que te apoiaria nos bons e nos maus momentos. Eu era a rapariga capaz de te amar como mais ninguém o faria ou poderia fazer. I am the girl you couldn’t keep!

It’s only in time that you will compreender a dor e a mágoa que fez passar esta rapariga. Ela nunca mereceu isso, nem uma única vez te causou tanta mágoa.

When you wake up alone craving everything you once had and didn’t fight for, only then will you want, miss and need this girl who begged you not to hurt her. You will then feel everything that she felt and more—you will have one of the biggest mistakes you have ever made haunting you. You will regret letting her go. Go have all the one-night stands you want, go do all the things in your schedule that you wouldn’t ‘fit’ her into… You will one day wake up and perceber o que tinha, mas ela já se foi embora.

What you should have known is this and she told you enough… É uma mulher que conhece o seu valor, she’s a woman who would never put up with the same shit for too long. She’s a woman who had to make one of the hardest decisions in her life and that was to leave the man she loved behind, as he was slowly killing her.

Este diamante acabará por encontrar o homem que o faria QUALQUER COISA para ela, o rei para a sua rainha. O HOMEM que morresse por ela e não a usasse como escudo.

You’re the guy who everyone calls an ‘idiot’ because of your actions.

You will soon find that she’s the girl you will be searching for in every other person but I will tell you now, you will never find her. Why? Because she was already standing by your side but you lost her while you were too busy ignoring her existence.

You were the other part of me, now you’re the guy I used to know.

Da rapariga que nunca olhará para trás.