You don’t have to worry that she’s going to make a scene. She’s not going to make a fuss about it. She’s not going to give up on you in a Hollywood style. It’s not going to be like that.
She isn’t going to make an epic exit out of your life. There won’t be any screaming or yelling. There won’t be crying and begging. She won’t fall on her knees, she won’t demolish the house or hit her fists on the wall.
This time she won’t try to walk away just so you could stop her. She won’t look for any reason to stay. She won’t search for a reason to fight for you anymore. She isn’t going to keep holding onto her hope that someday things are going to change.
It will be a quiet, gentle and elegant giving up on you. It will be such an effortless packing her things and leaving. It will be a silent carrying of all her emotional baggage down the stairs and an easy look over her shoulder to see what she’s exactly giving up on.
She won’t look back because she’s second-guessing her decision. It took her awhile to make it anyway. She thought it through already. She put all the pros and cons down on paper and there are a million reasons why she should give up on you. She needed only one reason to stay, but she couldn’t find it.
She fought for you loud and clear. She showed all her cards; she hid nothing. You knew where you stood with her. You knew how much she loved you and how hard she wanted to make things work out. You know how hard she tried to make you love her.
Her efforts were endless and she was restless. Everything she did was screaming your name and how much she cared for you. But somewhere down the road of giving everything and not getting anything in return, she got tired. Her strength got worn out.
She’s going to walk away in silence because she fought for you loudly. She spoke to you. She tried to explain. She tried to show you. She tried to make you picture everything she was feeling and how much you mean to her, but somehow, everyone else was able to see it but you. When she screamed the loudest, you couldn’t hear her. So she is choosing to leave in silence.
There will be a quiet sigh dedicated to everything you could’ve been if you cared enough. But you didn’t.
There will be a single tear that will try to roll down her face, but she’ll stop it.
Her leaving will be giving up with her head high. It will be walking away from your life with no intention to ever get back to you.
Just so you don’t forget, she tried everything. But no matter what she did, she could never wake you up. You never loved her the way she deserved. You never appreciated her and she was always taken for granted.
And even when she walks away in silence, try to recall the time when she last spoke and the sound of her voice because that will have been the last time you heard from her. You hated her words, but her silence will haunt you even more.