You are my hidden desire that doesn’t leave me be. You are always on my mind. No matter what I do or where I am, you are always somewhere in the back of my mind.
I know you must feel it too. Aren’t you sick of pretending that we are just friends when we are so much more? There is so much sexual tension between us that I feel like I am going crazy.
I want to be patient, I don’t want to mess this up by rushing into things. But it’s getting harder and harder by the minute. I want to feel your arms around me. I want to test your lips. I want you so badly.
You are the reason my body trembles and my knees go weak. Every time you are around I feel like a little girl who just has a crush, though I am long past that stage.
I haven’t felt in ages what I feel for you. It’s like this invisible force is pulling me closer and closer to you and I seem unable to resist it.
You are not making any of this easy on me. I cool myself down, I figure ‘it must be all in my head’. But you throw my rational thoughts down the drain when you start flirting with me.
Your eyes are following me all the time. Sometimes they are all over me, other times we look into each other’s eyes, locking them in this tension.
To make things even more tense, you say something nice out of the blue and totally unrelated to the conversation we were just having. You compliment my wardrobe, my hair, my smile, and even my ass.
You have a way with words. You and your cute, devilish smile are not leaving me be. You have the lead role in most of my dreams and my fantasies.
I want you to make the first move. I know I could make it too. But there is something inside of me that’s telling me not to. There is something that’s telling me to give you time to come to me.
I want you to make the first move because I want that old-school love. I want to feel feminine. I don’t want to be the one who pulls all the strings and makes all the efforts. I want something different now.
I want to be courted. I want you to be a man who is not running from what he feels. I want you to be the one who recognizes this chemistry between us and is willing to see if there’s something more to it.
I want to know too. I want to know whether this is just lust or if could we make it more meaningful. I want to know the real you. I want to know what you are hiding on the inside. I want to talk to you about serious stuff and sweet nothings.
I want to feel your hands all over me. I want to rip your clothes off. I want our skin to touch. I want to be intoxicated by the smell of your skin. I want to feel your lips pressed on mine.
I want to be your everything. I want to be your lover and your best friend.
I want you so badly that I don’t know what to do. I am so scared of doing something wrong. I am scared that our flirtationship will end if I dare to make a move. I am scared it will all end or stay the same if I just sit and do nothing.
Either way, it seems like I am at a disadvantage. But If I go to you, I will kill the fantasy. I will kill my dream of having that old-school love. I will end up disappointed.
That’s why I am counting on you. That’s why I hold on to this hope you will come to me and say you are into me as much as I am into you. I am going to wait a little while longer, but not too long because I think you are worth the wait.
