You were blind to see all those signals that she sent you calling you to rescue her.
She desperately wanted to save your relationship and your love. But you never listened because you were preoccupied with other things. And that indifference broke her fragile heart. Over and over again.
Then, in one moment, she decided to walk away from you. She decided to prevent you from ruining her life.
And if you ever ask yourself why she left you, here is what she would say:
She left you because of lack of love.
All she has ever wanted was for you to love her just the way she loved you. She was deeply, madly and without limitations in love with you. But you felt something different.
For you, love was something that happened when it was convenient for you, with a lot of calculation.
Your love was false and when she realized that, she decided to burn the bridges between the two of you.
She left because she had to fight for your attention.
She suffered every time you gave your attention to any other girl sitting next to you than to her. And you swore that she was the most important person in your life.
Is that the right way to treat the person you love the most? I don’t think so. Thank God, she figured that out in time and decided to move on.
She left because of emotional abuse.
She couldn’t stand you abusing her anymore. She couldn’t continue living with the toxic man you turned into, so she decided to escape that toxic relationship.
And when she finally left you, she became truly happy.
She left because of lack of respect.
She didn’t want to fight you every single day. But for you, fighting was like saying ‘Hi’—a totally normal thing that you practiced every day.
Without getting tired, you just wanted to see her emotionally dead, without any strength to get up and fight for herself.
By running away, she saved herself from destruction.
She left you because you ignored her.
You simply didn’t treat her like a woman you love. You treated her like someone you had just met and like someone you didn’t have any obligation to talk to.
She knew that she deserves better and that her concept of love is totally different than all you showed her so far.
She left because she realized that she deserved more than an almost relationship.
She finally figured out that you will never provide her with the love she desperately needed. She knew that a broken man like you will never be able to give his heart to her.
She knew that he was not capable of letting the demons from his past go. And that’s why she decided to move on and make a decent life for herself.
She left because she realized that a relationship is not a one-way street.
She knew that both of the partners had to make an effort for love to last. But you gave you her nothing that she craved and that made her whole world fall apart.
She left because you gave her every reason to do that.
You treated her like shit instead of love her and respect. Because she was a woman to love but you were too damn blind to see that.
And just because of that, you will never be able to touch her again.
You will never be able to make love with her. You will never be able to watch her sleeping. And all of that was your fault.
She left because she realized that she is worthy.
She woke up one day and realized that you were telling her lies about everything. She stopped believing that she was not worthy anymore.
She saw how other people treated her with love and respect and she finally realized that she is more than enough.
She left because she didn’t want to be controlled anymore.
She didn’t want to be someone you would tell what to do and where to go. She had her own life and she wanted to enjoy it to the fullest.
She was not blindly in love anymore, and she decided to make the first move toward a new life—one without the agony she had been living in for so long time.
Tuesday 12th of June 2018
This is so how I feel right now. It's how I live everyday. I can't express myself enough to say I wish I could get my other half to read this, and he took it took it to heart. But I know he won't, because he's all of this and then some..I hate myself for allowing me to think he could be the one.. I've lost my will to move on. I pray I get my strength back. I'm so ready to be happy and free again..
Thursday 22nd of February 2018