Después de todo lo que pasó, se siente tan bien estar sin ti

Recuerdo estar sentada en mi cama, pensando en todo lo que pasó entre nosotros.

I remember feeling guilty for destroying such a ‘perfect’ relationship.

Durante mucho tiempo, pensé que yo era la culpable de todo lo malo que ocurría.

For a long time, I couldn’t imagine my life without you and I guess that is why I was so stubbornly looking for answers and reasons for our break-up.

I couldn’t accept the fact that I would no longer see your face but now I’m happy to say that it actually feels so good to be without you!

It took me a while to finally open my eyes and realize how stupid I was to think that I wouldn’t survive without you.

La única razón por la que estaba convencida de que mi vida acabaría con nuestra ruptura es porque you made me believe that I’m weak ¡y que necesito que seas mi salvador!

But guess what? I don’t need you and, in fact, I realized that I never did.

Had someone told me that I would feel such bliss and happiness in my soul once you were gone, I wouldn’t have believed them.

Had someone told me that I would feel so much stronger after everything that happened, I wouldn’t have believed them.

I wouldn’t have believed them because I didn’t want to believe.

I was just running in circles, thinking that I’d lost a big part of my soul once you were gone.

Pero la verdad es que acabo de aprender una valiosa lección.

La verdad es que no fuiste ni más ni menos que una lección que me costó muchas lágrimas, esperas y perdones.

Y después de todo eso, ¡qué bien sienta estar sin ti!

Se siente tan bien no esperar tu llamada, se siente tan bien no esperar tus excusas y se siente tan bien no hacerte mi única prioridad.

Me siento tan bien pensando en mí mismo para variar y no importarme una mierda ninguna de tus gilipolleces.

It feels so good to know that every time I waited for you to call or text me, you were teaching me not to waste my time on those who don’t deserve it.

Se siente tan bien saber que cada vez que me hacías llorar, me acercabas deliberadamente a quien me hará sonreír.

Sienta tan bien saber que cada vez que esperabas que me creyera tus chorradas, me estabas enseñando que sólo los hombres de verdad se esfuerzan por tratar a sus mujeres con respeto.

And I’m sorry to tell you this but you’re definitely not one of them and you never will be.

Real men don’t treat their women like shit and then expect them to stay.

Luchan por ellos desde el primer hasta el último segundo y nunca se rinden, pase lo que pase.

And it feels so good to finally realize that you’re not that kind of man and you never will be.

It feels so good to finally open my eyes and see the real truth that your heart doesn’t have the capacity and it’s simply not capable of loving anyone.

La única persona a la que podrás amar es a ti mismo y cuando por fin te des cuenta, será demasiado tarde.

Cuando te des cuenta, probablemente estaré en algún lugar lejos de ti y nunca tendré la oportunidad de ver tu cara de arrepentimiento.

Pero.., el karma es una perra¿verdad?

After everything that happened, it would be a shame if you didn’t learn your lessons as well, just like I learned mine.

And trust me, once you feel a taste of your own medicine, you will be delighted because no matter how bitter the truth is, it’s the only thing that heals.

No matter how painful our lessons are, they are the only things that can help us open our eyes and continue our cruise through life in a more balanced sea and with the person with whom we’re meant to be.

So, after everything that happened, I thank you for helping me realize that you were just a passenger through my journey called life and that one day I’ll finally meet the one who will stay and teach me what love really is.

Véase también: Así es como aprendí a vivir sin ti