En el momento en que me vaya y deje de luchar, considera que me he ido para siempre.

Siempre he sido yo quien ha luchado por nosotros. Siempre fui la que compraba la paz en nuestro hogar, pagándola con mis lágrimas. La que siempre decía que no valía la pena pelear por pequeñeces.

But when a lot of small things happen often, they become a really big problem you can’t solve just like that. When you put up with something for such a long time, in one moment you decide dejar ir of everything. And it doesn’t happen because you get tired of fighting but because the other side doesn’t fight at all.

Y eso es exactamente lo que me está matando lentamente. Me está matando ver que soy la única que lucha, la única que intenta mejorar las cosas. Aunque tenga una relación contigo, me siento la mujer más sola del mundo.

I feel like I am the only one who is actually doing something to save what we have and that you don’t give a damn what will happen. You are so indifferent and it hurts more than anything.

It hurts so much telling someone about your dreams and hopes while that person doesn’t even listen to you. It hurts to give your love to a man who doesn’t reciprocate in the same way. It hurts to sleep next to him, asking God to make him hug you, but the only thing he does is make more space between the two of you.

Duele estar en una relación pero no pasar por lo que otras mujeres enamoradas están pasando. Ya sabes, duele.

And I just want you to know that I won’t be able to continue doing this for much longer. Because this is not love anymore, it is just a bad compromise. The one in which you get all you want and where I only get the crumbs from your table.

And that is not fair. That is not love. That is abuse. And I can’t take it anymore. No matter how much I love you and how much I care about you, I won’t be the one fighting for us.

Juro que me rendiré contigo igual que tú te rendiste con nosotros hace mucho tiempo. Me iré y la única razón por la que miraré atrás será para ver lo lejos que he llegado.

And that will happen sooner than you think. I will leave you when you least expect it. And I will never look back. You will be shocked, I know. You still don’t think that I am strong enough to leave you and that you are the only man for me.

Listen, even if you were the only one left standing on this earth, I wouldn’t be with you. What you are giving me is not what I need. If you think that it takes so little for love, then be satisfied with someone who will take you for granted, who will neglect you and gaslight you.

Because that is what you have been doing to me for all these years. And it is time to let go of everything that has been breaking me. It is finally time to accept that staying with you would hurt me more than leaving. It is time to say, “Goodbye,” once and for all. So, when you see me dejar de lucharconsidera que me he ido.

And once I leave, there won’t be a way for you to bring me back. Once I leave you, you won’t be able to tell me your sweet lies that you love me and that you want us to work.

You won’t have a chance to blind me with your kisses and hugs. Once I leave, I will burn all the bridges between us.

Lo haré con tanta satisfacción porque sufrí durante mucho tiempo, ansiando el amor que nunca me diste. Y esta vez, quiero que sientas lo que yo he sentido durante tanto tiempo.

Esta vez, quiero que pruebes tu propia medicina. Tal vez, pero tal vez, sólo entonces verás lo que me has hecho.

Y si eres la mitad de hombre de lo que te presentas, me dejarás en paz y no volverás a meterte en mi vida.

Vamos, hasta tú sabes que merezco un hombre mejor que tú.