Quería que lucharas por mí

Querido "amor de mi vida",

Aún recuerdo aquella noche en la que te dije que se había acabado. Te recuerdo de pie frente a mí y mirándome como se mira a un extraño en la calle.

Todavía siento esos escalofríos en el cuerpo cuando acabas de decir, “Okay”.

Sin siquiera intentar luchar por mí. Sin siquiera intentar hablar conmigo y disculparte por toda la mierda que me hiciste. Aceptaste mi decisión como si fuera lo más normal del mundo.

¡Espera! ¿Quién está loco aquí?  ¿Dejas ir tan fácilmente a la persona que amas?  Don’t you fight for someone who means the world to you?

Those questions kept running through my head while I watched you leave. I didn’t know what you felt inside of you. But I know that I didn’t get the reaction I wanted to see.

You left me like I was never yours. Like we haven’t spent all these years together—dreaming about the house we will buy and our kids that will play in the backyard.

Con una sola palabra, hundiste todos mis barcos. Tu ignorancia me hizo sentir como una tonta. Parecía que yo era el único que estaba enamorado en nuestra relación.

Parecía que yo era el único dispuesto a luchar cada segundo.

¿Y tú? Sólo fuiste un cobarde porque me dejas ir tan facilmente. Como si nunca te hubiera pertenecido. Como si nunca te hubiera importado.

Like I was just a stranger in the street. And that moment, I realized that I don’t want you anymore. I don’t need a man who won’t fight for me.

I don’t need an almost relationship. I deserve so much more from my life, and unfortunately, you can’t provide me with that.  

Quería que lucharas por mí, but you couldn’t do even that!

If you are such a coward who lets go of the one you love, then I don’t need you either. I want a man who will be there for me in my moments of sorrow.

Necesito un hombre que me apoye en mis decisiones. Necesito un hombre que me dará la mano cuando la vida se ponga dura.

Y, cariño no eres ese hombre. Y nunca lo fuiste.

I was just blindly in love with you so I couldn’t see other men who were trying to win me over. I trusted you when you said that you want to marry me.

Confié en ti cuando dijiste que querías que fuera la madre de tus hijos. Y me creí toda esa mierda como una idiota mientras tú tenías otro plan en mente.

Me hiciste sentir tan segura contigo pero estabas pensando en buenas maneras de dejarme. Y sentí que algo iba mal.

I saw that in your eyes. Your eyes weren’t the same as before. They weren’t looking at me with the same passion.

En cambio, estaban fríos, como si alguien hubiera apagado esa llama que ardía en su interior. Y los ojos son el espejo del alma.

That’s how I knew something was wrong. But I never imagined something like this could happen.

Nunca pensé que el amor de mi vida me dejaría ir. Sólo pensé que estábamos pasando por un bache en el camino y que resolveríamos todos nuestros problemas hablando.

But I was so wrong. I didn’t see this one coming. And I must admit it knocked me off my feet. I couldn’t believe that this was happening to me.

To us. I thought we were a happy couple—the one that will grow old together. But no, God had a different plan for us. He wanted to see us separated.

And now, when I look back, I am a happy and a satisfied woman. You want to know why? Because I was saved from a man who didn’t deserve me.

From a man who would sell me for his dreams. From a man who was a coward and couldn’t give his heart. To the man who was afraid to love and to be loved.

I don’t want a man like that. I wanted a man who would fight for me, but you even couldn’t do that. You didn’t show me any respect. You didn’t say that you were sorry.

You just left me like I was a dog in the street. You didn’t care if I would be okay, if I would scream and have a nervous breakdown.

Te fuiste como si nunca hubiera sido tuya. Y gracias por hacerlo. Ahora, sé lo que quiero de mi vida.

Ahora, sé qué clase de hombre merezco. I know my worth and I know that I won’t give you a second chance.

Because I gave you so much more than you deserved—so many sleepless nights waiting for you to come home.

So many talks late at night, telling you that you shouldn’t be worried about our problems, because if we love each other we will solve them all.

In all that mess, I failed to see that you didn’t want us to solve it all. You wanted to ruin our kingdom that we were building together, so we can’t enjoy it.

For some reason, you thought that we can’t work. And I wanted us to work. I really did.  

But your words were the last ones. And I couldn’t do anything about that. I can just thank God for saving me from a broken man like you.

Because my life with you would be everything but happy. With a broken man, nothing is easy, and I wasn’t ready for someone like that.

Quería que lucharas por mí y me dijeras que preferías estar sola que con otra persona.

But unfortunately, I never heard those words coming out of your mouth. I heard just a simple “Okay” that I will remember until I die.

Y sólo por esa palabra, nunca me permitiré tener un casi relación como la que tuve contigo.

¿Y tú? Espero que algún día recuerdes lo que tuvimos y te arrepientas de todo lo que hiciste para que se acabara.

Con cero amor,

La chica que se rindió