Whenever someone new walks into my life, they all think one thing: that I could be declared to be the happiest woman in the world.
People assume that I have absolutely no worries on my mind and that I fall asleep and wake up with a smile on my face.
However, the truth is far from that. In fact, I’ve had my share of misfortunes up till now just like the next person.
Life hasn’t been treating me as kindly as everyone might think. I’ve had more downs than ups and I’ve cried more than I have laughed.
My heart has been broken more than once, I’ve dealt with some devastating losses and I had to find a way to rise from the ashes numerous times.
There were times when I felt hopeless and helpless; moments when I felt like I’d hit rock bottom and moments when I was surrounded by darkness.
Nevertheless, do you know what helped me? Faith. That is actually the thing that kept me alive all this time.
The only thing that helped me see the right path even when I felt like I was trapped in a tunnel, that didn’t allow me to give up and which gave me optimism in the toughest of times.
You see, no matter how far I have fallen, I have always known that God was on my side.
And He was the one who kept me going, no matter what; the one who gave me a hand when I needed it and who pushed me forward in all of my battles.
God was always there to give me the strength I didn’t even know I possessed. To tell me that I can make it and to show me how powerful I actually am.
Through thick and thin, He was there to give me optimism and hope. There to teach me the importance of believing in myself and to assure me that I will manage to overcome every obstacle I encounter.
God was there to give me comfort and reassurance when I needed them the most. To show me everything I was capable of and to help me move forward.
He was there to give me a push every time I thought of giving up, to turn my open wounds into scars and to remind me never to lose faith in Him or in myself.
I won’t lie to you—there were times when it appeared that He was treating me without mercy. Times when He was testing and challenging me.
However, every time God closed one door for me, he opened a few more. Every time I thought I had reached my spiritual end, He gave me something to be grateful for.
Every time He didn’t answer my prayers, He replaced it with something even better.
Every time He removed some people from my life, He was sending me a sign that they didn’t deserve to be there in the first place.
So, now I realize that it was all for my own good. Even the losses, the ungranted wishes and the tears had a purpose.
They were there to teach me a lesson and to clear my path. Most importantly—there to show me how strong a woman I actually am.
They were there to teach me that I can’t be broken so easily. To help me understand how to heal my broken heart and how to glue myself back together, without anyone’s assistance.
So, no, I’m not happy every single moment of my existence. I’m not always content with everything going on around me, nor do I consider my life to be perfect.
However, I am at ease. I’m peaceful because I know that even when something bad happens, things will find a way of sorting themselves out.
I am optimistic because my faith is guiding me.
Because I know that God will never give me more than I can handle and most importantly—because I know He will never leave me to fight my battles on my own.
I’m calm because now I’m finally aware of my inner strength and moreover because I’m thankful for all of my blessings.