Even if I don’t like being single, in most situations I choose exactly that because the dating world is totally fucked up.
Nobody can wait to get an opportunity to cheat on their partner and love for them doesn’t have any value anymore.
It is not pure and clean anymore. And for me that is not real love.
You can call me crazy but in this world of chaos, I still believe in eternal love. I still believe there is a perfect match for every one of us, our soulmate, our better half, our best friend and lover all in one.
That is the person I want to wait for.
I don’t want to be with someone just to avoid being single. I don’t want to play with someone’s feelings because I wouldn’t like if someone did that to me.
And I am not saying that being with someone doesn’t have some pros. It is great to wake up in someone’s arms.
But I want to make sure that the arms of the man I am waking up in are the arms of my soulmate. It is great to open up to someone but I want to make sure that he is the one and that he won’t spread my secrets like they are nothing.
Being with someone who understands you, who values you and accepts you just the way you are is the best gift heaven can give you.
Being with a man who knows your whole story, who knows that you have been broken and that you have baggage and he still chooses you is a man who is really strong enough to handle anything.
And that kind of man I want to wait for. I know that he won’t come tomorrow or in a week but he will come eventually.
And when that happens, I will know it. My heart will feel he is the one I have been waiting for such a long time. And all this time without him will pay off.
While I wait for him, I will make sure that I work on myself. I will learn new things so I can share them with him.
I will use every moment to actually get to know myself better, to learn how to control myself and how to stay positive, even if life slaps me over and over again.
I know how strong I am, so even if he appears late, it will never be too late for me. I will be patient and I will wait for him because he is worth the wait.
I won’t be with someone just to avoid being alone. Because if I do it now, I will feel the consequences later.
That person will never be my person. I will never be able to relax and be myself with him.
And as I live with him, nothing will change. It will be average, because that is what everything looks like when you are not with the right man.
Everything is good enough but never perfect. Everything is feeling good but never feeling great.
When you settle for less than you deserve, when you choose the wrong one just to have someone, you will never be happy. You will never feel butterflies in your stomach and he will never be able to make you laugh like crazy.
With the wrong one, nothing will ever be fine and there will always be something missing. You simply won’t feel the warmth around your heart when you are with him.
And that is certainly not something I want for myself. Being with someone you love averagely is not the real deal.
And since there are so many mediocre things in life, at least love shouldn’t be one of them.
That’s why I need to wait. I will wait even if it takes a long time.
I know that I am strong enough to wait for the right one. I went to hell and back and if I could deal with things like that in my life, I will be able to deal with something like this.
If I remained standing on my own two feet every time life slapped me, I will be strong enough to wait for the perfect man to come into my life. I am not saying it will be easy to sleep alone, to feel unprotected sometimes and to handle things on my own but I know I am capable of doing that.
I am strong because I know that it will pay off. When the right one comes along, everything will make sense.
When he enters my life, I will finally feel complete. I will feel the peace in my heart that I never felt before but that I craved all this time.
When the right one comes, he will erase all my insecurities, all my pain, all my tears. He will make me feel like I am special and unique just the way I am.
And because of him, I will feel like the happiest woman alive. His love will cure my broken heart.
His words will give me the hope I lost a long time ago. He will accept me just the way I am and he will never try to complete me but accept me completely.
With the right one, love will feel what it should feel like. It will feel like home.