Alla mia ragazza che è stata persa da un uomo narcisista: ora sei al sicuro

Lo amavi così tanto, così fortemente e ingenuamente. Pensavi di essere la ragazza più fortunata del mondo. Non avevi idea di cosa ti aspettasse. Non immaginava quanto dolore avrebbe sofferto e quante lacrime avrebbe versato per qualcuno che non se lo meritava.

Pensavate di trovare la vostra felicità in quell'unico uomo. Non sapevate che per tutto questo tempo avete amato un uomo sbagliato. Non sapevate che il vostro amore vi si ritorcerà contro e vi sputerà in faccia.

Dopo aver assaggiato il male puro incarnato in lui, l'amore non fu più lo stesso. Non sapevate se sareste stati in grado di amare ancora qualcuno. La felicità si affievoliva e veniva sostituita da un'enorme tristezza. E nei momenti in cui dimenticavate quanto stavate male, i ricordi vi tornavano alla mente e vi ricordavano ancora una volta quanto foste infelici.

Stavi vagando nella tua vita come un estraneo. Cercavate di ritrovare un senso, ma ogni volta fallivate. Non aveva alcun controllo su ciò che stava accadendo. La sua mente la intrappolava dentro di sé e i ricordi di lui la perseguitavano, anche quando dormiva.

I know you weren’t always like that. I know that you had the prettiest smile I’ve ever seen. I know that you enjoyed life and were grateful for every next moment to come. You were that person who would light up the room wherever she goes.

But when you met him, all of that was gone. You stopped smiling. You wanted to comfort me by pretending that you were okay by forcing a smile on your face. But, I knew always. I knew because there was no spark in your eyes and those cute little wrinkles around your mouth when you smiled sincerely disappeared. I knew you were unhappy and I couldn’t do anything about it.

He changed you from the core. Instead of being that happy, likable girl I’d known, you became depressed and anxious. You lied to me, saying that you were sick, that you couldn’t get out of the bed. But I know that you didn’t want to get up. I know that he broke your spirit and I wanted him to suffer at least half as much as what you were going through. But I couldn’t do anything about it. You kept me in the dark. I was just a friend back then and you didn’t want to admit you’d made a mistake. I would have forgiven you. I would have given you everything, even then.

Later on, you said to me that you were ashamed of letting him change you. You admitted that you were going through hell, but you couldn’t let anyone know because you were angry at yourself for letting a manipulative idiot like him destroy you.

You trusted him because he made you feel safe. He tricked you into thinking that he’ll be there for you whenever you needed him, whenever you were hurt. You couldn’t have imagined that he will be the one who will hurt you on purpose, and pretend to comfort and be there for you. You couldn’t have imagined that such a diabolical being like him could walk this earth.

You lost yourself to a man who was incapable of love. You thought you could teach him to love. You saw that potential in him because he enchanted you. He sweet-talked you and made you believe that he is worthy of giving it a shot. But, you can’t teach a narcissist to love. I warned you back then. I begged you to stay away from him, but you kept answering back that things are going to be fine. I had no idea I love you, not until you’d fallen into the arms of another man. A man who didn’t deserve you.

There was nothing I could do but watch you suffer quietly and under the radar. But, you could never hide anything from me. I always knew when you lied right to my face. But I let you think that I’m clueless because I knew that one day, you’ll open up and when that day came, I stood there with my arms wide open, waiting for you to come.

Ti ho dato tutto quello che ti mancava. Ho voluto tenerti in braccio per così tanto tempo. Non ho mai voluto lasciarti andare. Volevo rimediare a tutto con quell'unico abbraccio. Volevo rimettere tutto a posto con quell'unico bacio sulla guancia.

Ho sentito quanto eri distrutta. Ho sentito ogni parola cattiva che ti ha detto. Ho sentito ogni pugno al cuore. I tuoi lividi hanno fatto male anche a me.

Volevo portarti via tutto. Volevo cancellare tutto con quell'unico abbraccio. E quello era solo l'inizio. Quell'unico abbraccio era solo la punta dell'iceberg.

I swear to you that no one will bring tears to your eyes again. I swear to you that your smile is not gone forever. I will bring it back. I know it won’t happen right away. But, I also want you to know that you are not alone anymore. I want you to know that on days when you don’t want to get out of the bed, I will be lying right next to you. I want you to know that when memories come rushing back, I will be there to help you chase them away.

We’re in this together. The only thing I regret is letting you go with him. I regret I was stupid for not seeing that I loved you even then more than life itself. But, our story has a happy ending after all because I swear on my life that I’m not going to let anyone hurt you ever again.

And in the end, to him, I’ve only got one thing to say: Sleep tight while you can because at the end of our journey, we will all be faced with whatever we’ve done so far. We will all answer for our sins. Just pray you will be able to take whatever awaits you.

di Owen Scott