Sei un codardo per avermi fatto innamorare di te senza alcuna intenzione di ricambiarti.

C'era questa ragazza che ti amava ingenuamente e puramente dal profondo del cuore.

C'era una ragazza che aspettava la tua telefonata giorno e notte e, per quanto fosse ferita dopo che quella telefonata era mancata per giorni, era felice quando finalmente ti eri deciso a chiamare.

She’d instantly forgot the gut-tearing-apart pain once your name appeared on her screen.

There was this girl that took up the task of loving you as a full-time job and she worked really hard to lift the career of ‘your girlfriend’ to the next level.

Per lei, amarti era un'essenza della vita. Eri il suo primo pensiero quando si svegliava e il suo ultimo desiderio prima di addormentarsi.

You were in her every plan, you had a place in every day she lived, and you were her choice—always.

She’d enjoy looking at your photos and she’d read your messages all over again.

When you were gone, she couldn’t sleep, she couldn’t eat, and she couldn’t think straight.

It’s like you found the way to crawl into every cell she had in her body and she couldn’t function without you.

And you hated her for it, but that’s the way you needed her to be—that’s the way you wanted her to be, isn’t it?

She wasn’t like this on her own. She didn’t just see you and all of the sudden become unable to live without you.

She wasn’t the first one to choose—you were the one that made her fall for you.

Sei stato tu a risvegliare il suo amore. L'hai abituata alle tue chiamate, ai tuoi messaggi, alle tue parole dolci, al tuo amore, alla tua presenza e a farla sentire speciale. L'hai fatta innamorare di te.

E poi ti sei tirato indietro.

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Perché?

You shouldn’t have made her fall in love knowing you had no intention to catch her. You shouldn’t have made her feel things you were too weak to reciprocate.

Because she’ll never forget the pain you caused. She’ll never be the same after. If you are not man enough to love her, why did you waste her time?

Ho sempre continuato a chiedermi perché hai fatto quello che hai fatto a me. Sai benissimo che quella ragazza sono io, o almeno ero io.

I just think it’s more convenient to refer to the person you made out of me as if it’s somebody else—like it’s some other girl, like it’s lei e non me because I don’t feel like that girl anymore.

I don’t feel it’s me, but I know it damn well it was me. I just can’t stop wondering what you did to me that made me want you more than I wanted to live.

You ever have things you can’t stop regretting in your life? I swear to God I have no idea whether to hate you or thank you for doing what you did to me.

Eri una lezione, anzi eri il lesson, but I can’t help but wonder if I could have gone without it in life.

I only know I’d hate myself if I ever decided to let you in again. I’d cut my wrists before giving you another chance. I need to think I washed you off of my body, my mind, and my heart.

Devo sapere che, anche se hai trovato il modo di strisciare all'interno di ogni cellula del mio corpo, alla fine ogni singola cellula si è rigenerata e ora non c'è una sola cellula del mio corpo toccata o baciata da te.

If it didn’t happen by now, it will happen soon. And you’ll be erased from my body and my system forever. And it feels so good to know this.

One of the things that’s moving me forward is this immense strength I have and desire to prove to you I am so damn good—I am lovable and that there is somebody out there who’ll pull me close and make me realize I’m worthy, I’m able to love and let myself go again.

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Thanks to you, I’ll choose better next time.

I promise I’ll have somebody better than you, just like I swear to you you’ll never have somebody as good as I was.