A sensitive heart can be a heavy burden. Your heart is so fragile, so gentle and so delicate that even the smallest things can disrupt its balance. But that is OK.
You are crying now and you can’t focus your mind, right? I know that feeling.
That feeling when you are choking on your own fears, emotions and tears. It’s like your own body can’t handle itself.
Sometimes I feel like it’s just anxiety playing with me, or that it’s the people around me who are the only ones to blame for how I am feeling.
But at the end of day, does the cause truly matter? Or does the way you react to it matter more?
Can I just tell you that what I have learned that helps the most in these moments is accepting that minute of feeling lost and out of your mind.
You are always so busy, you want to achieve something in your life and you stress out about everything. You make plans, you organize things and at the end of the day you fall asleep exhausted from all those things you did that day.
But let me just tell you that being productive and following your dreams doesn’t always mean that your heart is protected.
It takes just one person in your life to say something they didn’t think about or do something that makes you wonder if they ever loved you, for you to fall onto your knees and feel your heart vividly breaking inside your chest.
He hurt you. He did this to you. When you look back at it, you remember that time you were there for him, you remember how lost he was at that time and you wish for him to be right next to you and help you get through this but he is not.
He is not there with you and you know that he will not even come.
You will be crying your eyes out for a while but that is fine. You shouldn’t be blaming yourself for this emotional moment.
Your mind is blank. Is it not? You feel everything so deeply that your mind has shut itself down, for there is nothing it can say at this moment to make you feel better.
So let me be the one to tell you: Accept yourself for what you are right at this moment!
You are an emotional wreck, so embrace it!
The more you try to silence your emotions, the more you try to hide them away from the world, the more damage they will cause on your body, mind and soul.
The damage will go beyond tears because you will continue carrying those emotions with you wherever you go!
Isn’t it better to just let it all go? It feels awful right now but in the morning you will feel relieved! You will feel lighter, like you have let go of a huge burden.
You should not be angry at yourself for feeling all of these things! You will only be adding another emotion and anger that is felt toward yourself isn’t going to do you any good right now.
What you need now is unconditional love for yourself! You need it now more than ever before.
You need to realize that even though it’s harder to breathe through all these tears, even though your face is wet from all the tears, there is still no reason for you to not love yourself.
When you wake up in the morning, with those bags under your eyes, you will remember how you felt and you will respect yourself enough to not let that happen to you again.
You won’t let anyone treat you that way again, because it hurts too much to be let down by someone you loved so very much.
But at this moment, it’s better to let it all out than to bring that along with you, for you will meet someone and you will want to give them everything but you will not be able to because your emotions have been held inside for too long.
That is why you have to let go of all of it.
Because one day when you meet someone who is completely worthy of every little piece of you, you will regret not being able to give them everything you are.