I am done with listening to stories that are never going to come true. All the sweet words can’t make up for the lack of time, lack of effort and overall lack of honesty.
I want someone who knows that. I want a man who does more and proves his love with actions rather than someone who is all talk and no walk.
I want a man I can trust, someone I can feel safe with, someone I can rely on. I don’t want to weigh up every word a man says and look for the hidden meaning.
I want honesty and integrity and that’s so rare these days that I’m not even sure if it still exists. I am used to hearing lies. I am used to getting stabbed in the back. And I am tired of it all.
I am tired of losing sleep because the man I am into forgot to text me the entire day. I am tired of not knowing what he feels for me and whether or not we are in a relationship.
I am exhausted of the fear that I am not the only woman in his life.
Wouldn’t it all be easier if men were more honest? If they were just upfront right from the start and they told you if they wanted something meaningful or something casual. So you know what to expect.
Of course it would. It would make me and all the women like me stop wasting time.
This way, I only get my hopes up because I keep on hearing that they care and that I am special and the next moment, he is nowhere to be found.
I don’t want that. I don’t want lies. I don’t want someone to string me along. I don’t want to be in an almost relationship.
I don’t want to be with someone and feel lonely at the same time. I don’t want someone to tell me they love me and fail to show it in any other way.
I want to be able to feel the love. I want to see it in honesty and effort because love isn’t something you say, love is something you share with another person.
Love is giving your everything to someone who is reciprocating. Love is hugs and kisses just so you could feel the warmth. Love is a simple text from someone who can’t wait to hear from you.
Love is being concerned when your significant other is sick. Love is making them a cup of tea. Love is being able to sleep soundly at night because you are with someone you can trust completely.
Love is all those little big things that mean the world.
So no, no more excuses, no more sweet words and empty promises. I need a man who is sure about his feelings for me and won’t run for the hills when things start to be a bit more serious.
I need a man who stands by my side through thick or thin. I need someone who is entirely mine and has no interest in anybody else.
I need a man who actually means all those words he says. I want someone who will show me he cares and not someone who tells me that and does the opposite.
I want someone who will show me love with honesty and effort. Nothing more and nothing less.