To the one who broke my heart,
I’d like to say thank you. You might not understand why I’m thanking you at first, but hopefully this letter will explain.
It took me a long time to get to a place where I realised I had things to thank you for. You broke my heart, and for a while, I didn’t ever think I’d be ok again.
I gave you everything that I had and loved you in the best way that I could – completely; with all of me. I threw everything at making us work, and I wanted for us to be what I’d hoped that we would be, more than anything I had ever wanted. I gave you every ounce of myself; but it turned out not to be enough.
I think that’s what was hardest to take. And in truth, what’s been the hardest to get over. Not that you were gone from my life – though I must admit that that hurt too, but that I could give myself so completely to someone who I cared about so much, and it could be not enough.
For the following few months after you left, I can’t even begin to describe the number of tears I cried believing I could never be enough for anyone, because I wasn’t enough for you. I know now that this wasn’t your fault. You couldn’t make yourself love me any more than I could, and I forgive you for that. Sometimes you try your hardest to make the pieces fit together, but the edges have worn down and they just don’t belong together like they used to. I understand this now, and I forgive you.
I’d like to thank you for teaching me that love is the most powerful thing that you can ever give to someone, and even if that person doesn’t give you their love in return, you’re still so lucky to be able to feel so deeply.
I’d like to thank you for teaching me that you won’t always be right for everyone. And more importantly, I’d like to thank you for teaching me that that is perfectly ok.
I’d like to thank you for teaching me that even though I wasn’t enough for you – I am most certainly enough. I am beautiful in my own skin, and I am enough.
I’d like to thank you for showing me that I am worth it, and for helping me to not only face up to the things I wanted to change about myself, but to look my insecurities in the eye and also acknowledge the parts that I love about myself.
I am a better person because you broke my heart. I am a stronger person because you broke my heart. I am a happier person because you broke my heart. And most importantly of all, because you broke my heart, I wandered into the path of someone who loves me. Someone who accepts my everything with open arms. Someone who gives me every ounce of love that I give to him. Someone who thinks that I am perfect. Someone who helps me realise every day that I am enough.
In fact, I can never really thank you enough. You breaking my heart turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me.