I know it’s been a while since everything happened but I just wanted to say thank you for everything you did for me. From the good to the bad. We didn’t have a totally bad relationship, I’ll give it that.
In the beginning you always wanted to be near me, and always wanted to make me feel loved, which sorta helped me along the way to find what I actually needed in life. I want you to know I’m not the same girl anymore that I used to be. I’ve changed a lot. I have bad trust issues and I question every move someone makes now butt I just want you to know I don’t hate you anymore, I’m actually happy I met you.
You taught me everything I know about guys like you. I know when we started out, you ‘loved’ me, or what I thought was love, though maybe it was just a trap so you wouldn’t be alone in this world. I just want you to know it’s all okay, you’re forgiven. I can’t keep carrying the hate for you like I did in the beginning of the toughest break-up I’ve ever experienced. It wasn’t healthy for me. It just made me wish things had worked out. In reality, I’m glad for the things you did to me.
The times you went days without talking to me or wanting to see me, those moments taught me how to live on without you. I didn’t know it at the time but it did. It taught me that I didn’t need you to make me happy or for you to talk to me for me to be happy. I didn’t need you period. When you went and tried to break me by making fun of my flaws or the things I liked, it destroyed me at that time but now I have learned that I’m perfect. I love myself more than ever, thanks to you. I just had to break myself away from you to see what my worth really was!
And the times you went around cheating on me every other week, showed me I deserved something better. That if someone will cheat once they will keep doing it, and keep singing that same old tune, ‘I’m sorry baby, it was a mistake. I just want you.’
But if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t have learnt what I know now. I’ve learned how to make my own self smile, and I’ve learned that my eyes aren’t ugly – they make me unique. I’ve learned that if no one has me, I have myself. I also learned that if a guy truly loves you, he won’t cheat on you and just let you walk away, like you did to me. But I managed and now I’m a whole new person a year later! So thank you.
Now that my life is getting straightened back out and I’m actually happy, I want to wish you the best of luck in life and hope all is well with you, and hope that you may have actually learned a thing or two from trying to destroy me! Maybe you can also grow as a person!
The girl you lost forever
by Jodi Lynn Strickland