Do you believe in the concept of soulmates? Do you believe that we are not complete beings and that we all have a second half, a person who is meant to be ours?
Do you believe that we are all predestined to be with someone? That our soul looks for that other person, without us knowing it?
Do you believe that there exists a person who was born to be yours? That there exists someone who is your match made in heaven?
I bet you don’t.
Well, I didn’t believe in it either. I thought this was all bullshit. That this was something Hollywood made up and that things like this exist only in romantic movies and books.
Until I met him.
You may think this is a cliché but the truth is that the moment I laid my eyes on this guy, I knew it. It was just like in the movies. I felt like time had stopped and I could only look at him.
I felt like I’d known this guy forever, he was so familiar. Like I’d spent all my life until that day in search of him, without ever being aware of it.
It wasn’t his looks or the way he talked to me but that something I can’t explain even today was dragging me toward him. It was like some invisible force, like a magnetic field.
And from that moment on, I knew he was my soulmate. I knew he was my other half and the person whom I was predestined to be with.
No, he didn’t give me butterflies. I didn’t feel the usual excitement you feel when you meet someone new whom you like.
Instead, this guy felt like home. Looking at his face calmed me. Seeing him smile made me think that all of my troubles would go away.
When I was around him, I felt so secure and like nothing bad could ever happen to me.
When I was with him, I felt safe because I always knew he would have my back. I knew that he would hold my hand through all of life’s difficulties and I knew he would be by my side.
And all of a sudden, life made more sense. And it felt a lot easier.
But sadly, this didn’t last as long as I thought it would. Sadly, our fairy tale romance didn’t last a lifetime. Sadly, this man walked out on me.
I’ll never know if he felt the things I felt. I’ll never know if he actually thought of me as his other half.
Is it possible for someone to be your soulmate without you being his? I guess I’ll never find out.
But that is not the point anyway. I’m not going to remember all the pain he caused me when he left me.
I’m trying very hard to forget all the tears I cried for him and everything I went through after he became a part of my past.
And I am not going to talk about the fact that I still haven’t recovered from losing him, although I am trying very hard to do so.
But the fact is that years have passed since this man walked out of my life.
And I have had other men in my life. There were some nice and some less nice guys. There were times when I even thought I loved some of these men.
And some of these men made me go through a roller coaster of emotions. They woke up different feelings in me.
But not one of them managed to provoke what he provoked in me. Not one of them made me feel the way he did. And I am not sure anybody ever will.
And that is why I still think he is my soulmate, although he is not a part of my life.
Don’t get me wrong—I stopped hoping that we would get back together. I accepted the fact long ago that he is not my forever person and that I won’t spend the rest of my life with him.
But that doesn’t change the fact that he’s always been my person and my soulmate and that he always will be.