Eres mi mayor decepción

What you did to me was more than terrible. You shattered my dreams and destroyed my entire world. You put me through an unimaginable amount of pain that I was sure I couldn’t handle.

But I did. I didn’t only learn to handle it but I also survived. I survived you and everything you put me through. Somehow, my life kept going without you in it.

No voy a mentir—fue de todo menos fácil.

Al principio, no veía fin a mi miseria. Pensé que sufriría el resto de mi vida porque te alejaste de mí. Estaba segura de que nunca podría superarte.

At first, I hoped you’d come back. I hoped you’d realize you had made a huge mistake by abandoning me and that you’d try to fix things.

But most of all, I hoped that you’d understand how much you loved me and that we would continue where we left off. So, I waited for that to happen.

Estaba dispuesta a perdonarte por dejarme y por todo el dolor que me causaste, siempre y cuando pudiera tenerte de vuelta.

But time passed by and that didn’t happen. And what did happen was life. Everywhere around me, life went on and I was standing still, in one place, waiting for you.

And then one morning, after a while, I woke up and you weren’t the first thing that crossed my mind. And I didn’t realize that until a few hours had passed.

Otra persona lo consideraría irrelevante, pero para mí era enorme. Al cabo de un rato, volví a sonreír sin ningún motivo en particular.

And I knew I was on the path to my recovery. For the first time ever, I had hope that there would come a time when I’d get over you.

Y ese momento ha llegado. Realmente te sobreviví. Y realmente te perdoné por todo lo que había pasado entre nosotros.

Te perdoné por dejarme en un abrir y cerrar de ojos y te perdoné por no preguntarte nunca cómo me hacían sentir tus actos. Te perdono por todo, excepto por una cosa.

I can’t forgive you for disappointing me.

Let’s face it — you were never perfect. And neither was I. But I thought we were perfect for each other. After all, that was what you tried to convince me all along, wasn’t it?

Trabajaste muy duro para ganarte mi confianza y presentarte como un hombre fiable y maduro.

Don’t get me wrong — I always saw your flaws and I accepted them as part of you. But despite all of these flaws, I always thought you were an amazing guy.

Te consideraba un gran hombre y, sobre todo, una gran persona. Estaba seguro de la fuerza de tu carácter. Pensaba en ti como un hombre de palabra, como alguien que nunca violaría mi confianza.

I considered you to be a man I could trust with my life and I was sure you’d never hurt me the way you did.

Pero la forma me dejaste y todo lo que hiciste después de irte me demostró lo equivocada que estaba. Me mostró que sólo eras grande a mis ojos.

You weren’t this great man and great person—Sólo te imaginaba así. Sólo eras mi mayor amor.

Me di cuenta de que sólo esperaba y esperaba que fueras una persona mejor than you actually were. And then it hit me — I never knew the real you.

I will never know whether you pretended to be someone you obviously weren’t or if I just chose to see you differently. I will never know if you changed after you walked away from me or if this was your true face all along.

Porque empezaste a actuar como si yo nunca hubiera existido, como si nunca hubiéramos existido.

When you walked away without ever giving me an explanation, without saying a word, you proved that our relationship never meant a thing to you — that I didn’t mean anything to you. You did everything you swore you would never do.

Y ahora, you are the man you swore you’d never be. Now, you are my biggest disappointment.