Sei la mia più grande delusione

What you did to me was more than terrible. You shattered my dreams and destroyed my entire world. You put me through an unimaginable amount of pain that I was sure I couldn’t handle.

But I did. I didn’t only learn to handle it but I also survived. I survived you and everything you put me through. Somehow, my life kept going without you in it.

Non ho intenzione di mentire—è stato tutt'altro che facile.

All'inizio non vedevo la fine della mia infelicità. Pensavo che avrei sofferto per il resto della mia vita perché ti eri allontanato da me. Ero certa che non sarei mai riuscita a dimenticarti.

At first, I hoped you’d come back. I hoped you’d realize you had made a huge mistake by abandoning me and that you’d try to fix things.

But most of all, I hoped that you’d understand how much you loved me and that we would continue where we left off. So, I waited for that to happen.

Ero pronto a perdonarti per avermi lasciato e per tutto il dolore che mi hai causato, purché potessi riaverti indietro.

But time passed by and that didn’t happen. And what did happen was life. Everywhere around me, life went on and I was standing still, in one place, waiting for you.

And then one morning, after a while, I woke up and you weren’t the first thing that crossed my mind. And I didn’t realize that until a few hours had passed.

Qualcun altro lo considererebbe irrilevante, ma per me era enorme. Dopo qualche tempo, mi sorpresi a sorridere di nuovo senza un motivo particolare.

And I knew I was on the path to my recovery. For the first time ever, I had hope that there would come a time when I’d get over you.

E quel momento è arrivato. Sono davvero sopravvissuta a te. E ti ho davvero perdonato per tutto quello che è successo tra noi.

Ti ho perdonato per avermi lasciato in un batter d'occhio e ti ho perdonato per non esserti mai chiesto come le tue azioni mi facessero sentire. Ti perdono per tutto, tranne che per una cosa.

I can’t forgive you for disappointing me.

Let’s face it — you were never perfect. And neither was I. But I thought we were perfect for each other. After all, that was what you tried to convince me all along, wasn’t it?

Hai lavorato molto duramente per guadagnarti la mia fiducia e per presentarti come un uomo affidabile e maturo.

Don’t get me wrong — I always saw your flaws and I accepted them as part of you. But despite all of these flaws, I always thought you were an amazing guy.

Pensavo a lei come a un grande uomo e, soprattutto, a una grande persona. Ero sicura della forza del suo carattere. Pensavo a lei come a un uomo di parola, come a una persona che non avrebbe mai violato la mia fiducia.

I considered you to be a man I could trust with my life and I was sure you’d never hurt me the way you did.

Ma il modo in cui mi hai lasciato e tutto quello che hai fatto dopo che te ne sei andato mi ha mostrato quanto mi sbagliavo. Mi ha mostrato che eri grande solo ai miei occhi.

You weren’t this great man and great person—Ti immaginavo solo così. Eri solo il mio più grande amore.

Mi sono reso conto che mi aspettavo e speravo solo che lei fosse una persona migliore than you actually were. And then it hit me — I never knew the real you.

I will never know whether you pretended to be someone you obviously weren’t or if I just chose to see you differently. I will never know if you changed after you walked away from me or if this was your true face all along.

Perché hai iniziato a comportarti come se non fossi mai esistito, come se non fossimo mai esistiti.

When you walked away without ever giving me an explanation, without saying a word, you proved that our relationship never meant a thing to you — that I didn’t mean anything to you. You did everything you swore you would never do.

E ora, you are the man you swore you’d never be. Now, you are my biggest disappointment.