Te Eché De Menos Hasta Que Me Di Cuenta De Que Nunca Fuiste Mía

I always thought you were mine. I thought that you don’t want to be anybody else’s but mine. I had the feeling that you loved me and that you were actually giving me all I needed to be happy. In fact, I considered myself lucky to have someone like you in my life.

What I didn’t see was that you didn’t give me half the love I deserved. You didn’t give me the amount of love I gave to you. I had that strange feeling that something was not right, but I thought it was something that happens to all couples.

Estaba tan cegado con tus dulces palabras, tus juegos, and your actions that made me believe you were only mine. But the harsh truth was that you were everybody’s but mine. You gave your time and your love to women who didn’t deserve it.

Se lo diste tan fácilmente a todo el mundo, pero nunca me lo diste a mí. Aunque fui la única que te amó con todo mi corazón, nunca conseguí lo que había estado soñando.

Nunca recibí ese amor de época. Nunca tuve la sensación de que me quisieras y de que yo fuera la persona más importante de tu vida.

Siempre tuve que buscar tu amor y tu atención. Tenía que perseguirte si quería que estuvieras conmigo. Pero a ti te gustaba ese juego porque te subía mucho el ego.

You enjoyed every time I was losing my mind because you were sitting with another woman and watching her like you used to watch me. In moments like that, I felt like my whole world was falling apart, but you didn’t give a damn about that.

Fue satisfactorio para ti, y seguiste rompiendo mi corazón paso a paso. Querías ver cuáles eran mis límites y si al final me elegiría a mí misma o volvería arrastrándome hacia ti.

Te encantaba jugar conmigo, con mis emociones, con mi sentido común. Te gustaba me vuelven locoy más tarde me acusarías de ser una reina del drama.

You could never understand why I acted like that. You could never see how much I loved you. To be honest, you didn’t want to even try.
Así de poco me querías.

Mientras yo intentaba salvar lo que teníamos, tú te entregabas a todas las mujeres con las que te cruzabas aquel día. Todas eran mejores que yo. Todas eran más guapas, más listas y más divertidas.

¿Sabes una cosa? Yo era la guapa, la lista y la divertida en el pasado.

¿Pero sabes en qué me convertí después de que me quebraste?
I turned into a woman who doesn’t feel like dressing up and looking good because even if I did that, I wasn’t beautiful enough for you.

Because of you, I didn’t engage in conversations anymore, so people would think that I don’t know anything about your ‘affairs’ and that was the reason I didn’t not say anything.

Because of you, I stopped being the fun girl since you took all my positive energy away and left me to wonder if I was good enough. I became a living corpse. I would spend the whole day analyzing why we aren’t working out and how I can improve so you would like me more.

What I couldn’t see was that I was all you ever wanted, but you were too scared that I would be the dominant one in our relationship. You saw that I can make all my dreams come true, and you were so terrified that you wouldn’t achieve your goals and that I will be better than you.

Eras un cobarde que seguía haciéndome daño pero sin dejarme ir. Y eso es lo que eres ahora también. Sigues siendo un pedazo de mierda, pero he decidido que voy a ser feliz.

Te eché de menos, lo admito. Pero pasó sólo hasta que me di cuenta de que nunca fuiste mía. You were there with me physically, but you weren’t there in spirit.

All that you gave me wasn’t because you loved me. You did it to make me stay. In the end, you needed something you could name as a reason when I would say that I was leaving you.

And every time I planned to leave and start a new life, you would come and tell me that you would be lost without me, that I am the only light at the end of your tunnel, and that your life won’t have any purpose without me.

Así que decidí darte una segunda oportunidad. Y una tercera. Y una cuarta. Pero entonces me di cuenta de que ni siquiera intentabas que me quedara. Lo intentarías sólo un día, y al siguiente seguirías como querías.

That wasn’t something I wanted in my life. That wasn’t something I was satisfied with. So, I decided to let you go. I must admit that it isn’t easy to let go of someone you’ve loved for such a long time.

I still remember the sleepless nights I spent, thinking about you while you were probably in another woman’s bed. It took me so long, but in the end, I realized that I couldn’t miss someone who was never mine—at least not completely.

Ahora, cuando pienso en ti, me digo que sólo fuiste una lección Tuve que aprender. Tristemente, de una manera dura. Pero gracias a ti, nunca dejaré que un hombre me trate como tú lo hiciste.

Because of you, my heart is broken to pieces so small that they can’t be glued back together.

Because of you – I fell.

But because of myself – I will rise.