L'abbandono non mi ha ucciso, ma qualcosa dentro di me è morto quel giorno

Shhh e ascolta. Ricordo anche come mi sono zittita quel giorno, dopo che te ne sei andato. Riesci a sentire quei suoni? I suoni della solitudine e del vuoto? Sono gli stessi suoni che sentivo quel giorno.

Quel giorno qualcosa dentro di me è morto e mi ha cambiato per sempre.

I still remember everything perfectly. That picture of you leaving will remain in my memory forever. I can still see it like it’s happening at this same moment.

You came to me with the famous, “We need to talk,” sentence and I immediately knew that something bad was about to happen, even though I still can’t understand what the reason for it was.

Regardless, I didn’t see it coming. I couldn’t even imagine that you were planning on leaving me, to give up on our relationship, to forget all our plans and goals for the future.

Presto accadde la cosa peggiore. Il mio incubo peggiore divenne realtà.

No, in realtà non avrei mai potuto nemmeno sognare che una cosa del genere potesse accadere a me, a noi.

You know, you leaving me was always my biggest fear. I couldn’t imagine my life without you. You became my other half, my better half… my everything.

I’ll never forget the day I met you because it was the day I met love. It was the day I could hear my heart beating so hard that it seemed like it was going to jump out of my chest.

È stato il giorno in cui ho sentito per la prima volta quella sensazione di farfalla in my stomach. I hadn’t felt so peaceful or happy in a long time.

I wished that moment would last forever because I didn’t want that feeling to go away.

Si dice che si possa capire molto di una persona dal modo in cui se ne va. I agree with this, actually, you proved to me it’s true. You showed your true colors when you decided to leave me for good.

I realized that all that time, I had the wrong image of you. The love I felt for you made me completely blind and that’s why I couldn’t see your true face.

Eri la mia amica, la mia migliore amica, la mia compagna, il mio amore, la mia amante. Eri la mia calma nell'oceano tempestoso chiamato vita. Sei stato tutto ciò che ho sempre desiderato e sperato.

Ti ho idealizzato e questo è stato il mio errore. Per me eri la persona perfetta, l'uomo perfetto. Ho sempre pensato che fossi impeccabile. Ho dimenticato che siamo tutti esseri umani e nessuno di noi è perfetto.

Solo Dio Onnipotente è perfetto.

You claimed so many times that you loved me. You told me so many times that there was nothing in this world you wouldn’t do for me. Now, I can see that none of it was real.

Il vostro amore non è mai stato reale. You can’t say that you love someone and then destroy them.

You can’t swear that you love someone and expect them to believe it when le vostre azioni mostrano solo l'opposto di questo.

Now, you are back again. You are all alone and lonely and you want to ‘have the talk’ with me again. How highly must you think of yourself?

You think that you have the right to come back whenever you want and that you’ll be welcomed back?

Well, you won’t. Don’t try to sell me that story of how you needed some time or how you never stopped loving me. I don’t buy it anymore.

Ricordi? Ho incontrato la vera te e you can’t lie a me.

Ora è tutto molto più facile per me, perché ho capito che non sei mai stato degno di me. Non mi hai mai meritato, né il mio amore.

Can you hear that sound? It’s so well-known to me. It’s the sound of your heart breaking. I could hear mine that day and for so many days after. A piece of my heart broke and it’ll never be the same again.

It doesn’t matter. Different or the same, my heart is still beating, I’m still alive and that’s all that matters. I’m so proud of my heart for everything it endured.