In 2019, I want to feel real love.

I want to feel the peace within. And I want all the scars on my soul to fade away. I will fight every thought about not being able to do something. Because I have had enough negative thoughts and that is not something I want to keep doing in the next year.

So, 2019, here I come—stronger than ever, more beautiful than ever and one year smarter.

I have changed but that is totally fine with me. Finally, I learned to love myself. I learned to respect myself and to care less about what other people have to say. I will not be the one who doesn’t take chances because she thinks that she can’t handle them. Instead, I will try.

I will try to do things that I never did before and if I fail, I will surely learn a lesson from it. But one thing is for sure—I will keep trying until I get where I want.  

In 2019, I am leaving my past where it belongs.

I don’t want to think about the mistakes I made nor about how they affected my life. Instead, I want to focus on what is in front of me. I don’t want to be harsh on myself just because I failed to do something right. I don’t want to feel bad about it anymore. I just want to let it go.

Speaking of letting go, I want to let go of something else—all the toxic people who made a living hell out of my life.

I don’t want to have any contact with them because I love my life and I don’t want them to ruin it. I don’t want to listen to them gossip about others because they will surely do it about me as well. I just want to be far away from them because they don’t have the positive energy I crave. I will let go of anyone who makes me think that I am not worthy.

 

Woman standing in lake leaning her head back

 

In 2019, I want to stop trying to be someone I am not just to fit in.

I don’t want to be someone people will mold into the shape of their own taste. This time, I want to be the real me, even if it means that others will turn their backs on me. So far I have learned that it is better to be alone than in bad company.

In 2019, I will learn to respect myself more.

I will do anything to get where I want and I will think of me more than others. This time, I will make myself a priority and not an option. I think that is the way to happiness and I will get there sooner or later.

In 2019, I will learn not to bother my head with other people’s opinions.

I won’t let anyone affect my life. In the end, I am the one who will suffer in this skin, or be happy, depending on the situation. And that is a damn good reason for others to leave me alone. I won’t tolerate people coming into my life to make me feel sad. If they are to be a part of my life, they need to earn their place there. Otherwise, it doesn’t make any sense.

In 2019, I will learn to love myself again.

I will accept myself with all the pros and cons. Because that is me and all the things that happened to me that shaped me into the person I am today. I will show myself that there is no person more valuable than me. And after I realize that, I will start believing in it as well.

In 2019, I am focusing on my story.

I don’t want to be a side character in someone else’s story. This time, I want to be the protagonist. This year will be special because I will put myself first. I am going to choose myself. I am going to think positively only. I am going to accept myself the way I am.

And when I turn back at the end of 2019, I want to tell myself that this year was the year when something actually changed.

I want to know that in that year I made some new goals that I was able to achieve. I want to feel that I made some of my wishes come true and that I put myself on a good path to be happy again.

I want to feel that that year was all that I had been looking for and that I finally found the recipe for a good life.

In that year, I want to know that I finally put myself first!

Christine Keller

I started writing just as a hobby, but in the end, I decided that it is something that fulfills me. I find inspiration in life’s everyday problems and every article that I write tells something about my past. In this way, I want to tell women all around the world that even though we are miles away, our pain makes us close. My articles were written to comfort those who need it the most and to tell them that they are not alone. I am a full-time mom, and I like spending time with my son, good people, sunny days and beer.

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