I Really Hope You Won’t Break My Heart
I know we are just getting to know each other and that neither of us actually knows where we stand.
I know that we are just at the beginning of our journey and that neither of knows how this will turn out.
I know we’ve just started seeing each other but the truth is I really like you. And I am not ashamed to say this out loud.
The truth is that I think we could have something serious and beautiful.
The truth is that I can easily see myself loving you. And I think this is exactly what’s happening to me right now—I think I’m growing to love you.
And that is why I have to ask you to take me seriously while reading this, what I’m about to tell you.
You might find it funny and irrelevant. But trust me, it’s more than important to me. This might even push you away from me. But trust me, it’s the last thing I want to do.
You might think that I’m being too pushy or that I think about our relationship too much and too far ahead. But please, I’m begging you not to break my heart.
I’ve never talked to you much about my past. And I’m not going to start now.
I will only tell you that it was painful and emotionally devastating for me. I will tell you that I was a person who let some wrong people into my life.
That I was a girl who loved some wrong men. And a girl who has been through a lot.
I will tell you that I’ve had my heart broken numerous times. You might think this is not a big deal and that it happens to everyone but it really destroyed me.
I’ll be honest with you, because this is not something I should be ashamed of.
I’ve been cheated on, abandoned and I went through severe emotional abuse. And all of this left some serious damage on my heart and soul.
All of this caused me to be scared of having my heart broken all over again. To be terrified of going through the same things once again.
Because I know I could never stand it.
And because I know another heartbreak would completely ruin what’s left of me. So please, be different.
Please, don’t play with my head or my feelings.
Please, don’t treat me like shit. Please, don’t make my life a living hell. Please, don’t cheat on me.
Please, don’t turn into an abuser. Please, be the man I think and hope you are.
I promise you I won’t ask for much. And I don’t expect any special treatment because of my past. Trust me, your love and respect will be more than enough for me.
I am just asking you to always have in mind to take my feelings into consideration. I am just asking you to be fair and to never do anything with the intention of hurting me.
Don’t get me wrong—I am not implying that you are the same as my exes. And the last thing I would like to do is offend you by implying that you want to hurt me.
But I hope you understand where I’m coming from and what I’m trying to tell you. And I hope you understand why I’m telling you this now, at the beginning of our relationship.
I hope you understand I’m writing this because you matter to me and because I care about you.
Because I want you to decide if this is something you can handle, before things go too far.
I know nobody can know what will happen in the future. And I assume no man has the intention of hurting a woman from the start.
But I’m just asking you to promise me that you’ll at least try not to break my heart.
If this is something you can’t do, I won’t resent you and I’ll understand. But please, be honest with me and tell me how things are in time.
Before I get my hopes up. Before I start trusting every word you say. Before I give you my heart completely.
And before it becomes too late for me to save myself.