‘Dear You’
After all these years with you, I now finally understand that I loved you more.
I was the one who would always go the extra mile for our relationship while you gave zero effort to make things work.
I always wanted to know why you didn’t love me and why you didn’t think that I was worthy. And I did everything in my power to make you happy.
And in all that mess I forgot the most important thing—to love and respect myself.
But it is all over now. I am a priority to myself and I don’t regret all those nasty things that happened to me.
If it weren’t for them, I wouldn’t be this strong. And for that, I want to thank you.
If it weren’t for you, I would never have learned that loving someone doesn’t mean that they will give their love back to me, or even half of that love.
Thank you for showing me that people you once loved can turn into complete strangers somewhere along the road.
Thank you for teaching me that love doesn’t just mean spending time with someone and listening to their problems.
Now, I will never let any other man treat me like an option. If I ever fall in love again, I will be with a man who is scared to death of losing me.
And that will be the only rule I will respect regarding love.
You should know by now that I was the type of a woman who loved insanely and that is the only way I know how to function.
I loved and I lost but I was always me, a girl with her heart on her sleeve, while you played another kind of game.
Your mind games were anything but good. You were the man with the mask all the time. You made a big show for everyone around you but you couldn’t deceive me.
I knew your real face and yet I decided to stay with you.
But you didn’t have a clue about love. Love is all that you think it isn’t. Love is waking up to the same person every day and choosing that person every single day.
Love isn’t passive, it is an action, something that lives inside of us and something that has to be nurtured.
When I think about it, I realize that maybe, just maybe, you weren’t ready for all that love that I had for you.
You didn’t know how to act when someone pampered you and showered you with love.
You were unable to give me the love I needed and for that, I will never forgive you. I never got the love I craved so much and you never cared about that.
It was easier to turn your back on me than to make the effort to make a beautiful love story.
Now that it is all over, I don’t regret anything because I am a much stronger person than I was when I was with you.
Now, I want a love that borders with common sense and I will never settle until I get it.
So, instead of sitting at home and waiting for you to call, I choose myself every day.
And when you realize how much of a loving and caring person I am one day and you wish to have a second chance with me, please know that I won’t be there.
I still believe in second chances but I don’t think everyone deserves them-and that includes you!
