Why wait for 2021 to begin, I am starting now.
I owe it to myself to start as soon as possible. I owe myself that same love I keep giving others.
So my main goal for the year that comes and all the years that will follow is to fall madly, crazily, deeply in love with my damn self.
How am I going to do just that? Well, I have a plan:
I am deleting the negativity of past years and getting a clean start. As soon as I have a negative thought, I will switch it to a positive one.
I won’t allow one single negative thought to stay with me for more than a split second. If it stays, it will develop, and it will poison my life.
I will delete all the pain from my past and only take the lessons with me. I can’t change what happened.
I can’t influence the outcome, and thinking about it is just making me sad.
I am falling in love with my mirror reflection.
No more do I wish I was thinner or that I gained a few pounds. No more are my lips are too small or my nose is too big.
I am not going to look at my mirror reflection that way anymore. I am so much more than my physical appearance.
I am beautiful inside and out, and I don’t need to look like a photoshopped model from a magazine cover.
I am sure they also have their insecurities even though they are perfect for us common people. That’s why I am choosing to change my mindset.
I am accepting my imperfections, and I am loving them. They are what make me me. They are what make me unique.
I know I will have my ups and downs on this road to self-love.
I know that life without worries, insecurities, and problems is not possible. But I’m making a promise to myself not to create problems where there aren’t any.
I promise I will concentrate on the 80 percent that is good in my life and my relationships with other people instead of that crappy 20 percent that keeps bringing me down.
I promise I will rise back up every time I fall. I will keep on trying and always move forward. Out with the toxic.
I know I will never reach my goal if I allow toxic people to poison me with their own insecurities. I will never make it if they keep telling me that I can’t.
I will never have enough strength if they keep exhausting mine. People who don’t have my best interests at heart don’t deserve a place in my life.
It’s so simple, and I don’t know why it took me so long to tell them they don’t belong there.
People who are my support system, who believe in me and have my back at all times, deserve my undivided attention, and I am not spending an ounce of my energy on others.
Not anymore. I am going to be my own hero. I won’t wait for love to save me. I am going to save my damn self.
I am going to stand up for myself, and I won’t lay down silently while people walk all over me. I will speak up when I am not treated right.
I will pull away when the situation doesn’t suit me. I am that woman who always said nothing for the sake of the greater good.
F**k the greater good when it’s hurting me so much. I am going to read more. I can’t remember the last time I actually read a book.
But I know that as soon as I start, I will lose myself in the world of make-belief. It will be my time to unplug and leave my phone on silent for a change.
I will read all genres, but I will start with something motivational and inspiring. I will fill my mind with positive thoughts.
I will spoil myself from time to time. I will work hard at my job. I will visit the gym more often, and I will eat healthier.
I have to—it’s not really an option.
But I will have days during which I will do absolutely nothing.
I will veg out in front of the TV. I will watch movies on Netflix all day long. I will call my friends and go out for dinner. I will spend the entire day at the spa.
I will find balance because too much work and no play will only make me burn out, and I don’t want that to happen. I will say “No!” more often
There is something liberating about saying “No!” to things you really don’t want to do. I used to do so many things so no one would get mad at me for skipping.
But you know what?
We all have just this one life, and I won’t waste it on being where I don’t want to do what I don’t like to do because I feel pressure from my friends or family.
Enough is enough. I will have more fun. I am ready for more adventures. More sleep. More dance. More laughter. More creativity. More love.
I know it’s up to me to make that happen. So I’m already rolling up my sleeves. There will be no excuses for the lack of fun in my life.
So what if nobody wants to go on a trip with me. I will go all by my lonesome. It’s time I start enjoying my own company.
My happiness is entirely up to me. I can change my luck if I decide to do something about it. If my desire for change comes from me.
If I am determined to reach the goal of self-love. I am in charge of my feelings.
I am a whole all on my own, and I don’t need anyone to make me happy. I’ve learned by now that it’s better to be alone than in a bad relationship.
Still, I believe in love, and I hope I will one day find someone to share my happiness with. Someone besides my friends and family to accompany me on this wild ride.
In the meantime, I will keep reminding myself of my worth. I will focus on making my life better. I will believe in myself.
I will fall back in love with my life all over again.