I Can’t Believe That Now We Are Just A Couple Of Strangers, After Everything We Went Through
I assume every romantic couple thinks that their love story is special and different from anyone else’s. And those were my exact thoughts as well. That is what the two of us thought about our relationship.
We thought that our love was something out of this world, that it was a force stronger than everything and everyone who was in its way and that nothing could defeat it.
From the moment I met you, I was convinced that we would spend the rest of our lives together. Something like that had never happened to me before but from the moment I saw you, I had no doubt about the fact that I had found my soulmate and my forever person. I felt like our souls knew each other from a past life and I was convinced we were destined to be.
And as our relationship went on, everything that was going on between us gave me more and more reasoning that I was right—that we were meant to be and that we would stay together, despite all the obstacles we might encounter.
You and I loved each other very much. And that love was passionate, unconditional and special.
And that is something nobody can take away from me. That is something that can’t be destroyed by the fact that we are not together or by everything that went on between us before that happened.
But the fact is that what we had was special and it was anything but ordinary.
The fact is that the two of us lived as one and that we were one.
The fact is that we went through a lot together. Yes, we had some beautiful memories and we shared some amazing experiences together.
But what made our love so strong was the fact that we stayed together through thick and thin. We were together through good and bad times and neither of us ever thought about backing out. What made our relationship strong was the painful experiences and the way we stuck together through them.
At least, that was what I thought.
That is why I’ll never understand why everything we had has fallen apart without any apparent reason.
I will never understand how it is possible that you left me without saying a word, without ever giving me a proper explanation, because we both know that was the least I deserved.
I will never understand how come you could have walked away from me and from us, without ever looking back, as if we never existed.
I will never understand how come you could have done all of this, without ever thinking how it might affect me or without asking yourself about the pain you were causing me.
And most of all, I will never understand how it is possible that everything in our lives changed overnight. That all of a sudden, I was expected to forget all about the person I cared about the most, the person who was my partner and best friend—all in one.
I will never understand how we can be strangers after all the things that happened between us.
Because we will never be strangers, even when you become a distant memory. Years can pass us by but the memory of our love will always remain.
I can’t accept the fact that I can’t call you whenever something good or bad happens to me, because you are still the first person I want to share everything with.
I can’t accept the fact that I have to act like we never existed and that I need to let you go from my life, just so I wouldn’t look pathetic and desperate.
But it doesn’t mean I understand how come we can act like we don’t know each other after all the mornings we woke up next to each other and after all the nights I fell asleep in your arms.
How come we can act as if we were never a thing and don’t even look at each other when we accidentally meet, after all the love that existed between us, after all the plans, dreams and hopes we had?
Because that is something I could never imagine happening.
No, I never thought of us breaking up either. But somehow, I always knew there was the possibility of that happening.
But silly me always thought that you would be a part of my life even if that happened.
Even in my wildest dreams, I could never picture my life without you being in it.
And that is why I have a hard time accepting this.
I am an English Language and Literature teacher. I am a writer. I am a daughter, a sister, a friend… But most of all, I am a woman, just like you.
A woman who has experienced the same things you’ve been going through. A woman who’s been fighting battles similar to yours. A woman who wants you to learn from her mistakes and who wants to help you empower yourself.