Do you still think that I’m the same woman who would go out of her way to meet your every need, to treat you with respect and appreciation, only to receive crumbs in return?
Do you still think that I’m the same woman who would stupidly keep finding excuses for your every mistake, your toxic words, and selfish treatment?
No. I’m sorry to “disappoint” you, but that woman no longer exists!
That woman has promised herself that she’ll never let anyone play with her trust, mind, and heart ever again.
That woman has promised herself that she’ll never waste any more seconds of her time on those who don’t deserve her.
Yes, that woman is me finally accepting the fact that you’re no longer a part of me – my body, my mind, my heart, my life!
Yes, this is me finally realizing that all this time I was stupidly and selflessly giving without ever asking for anything in return.
And you know what? You weren’t worthy of any of it and you never will be!
And don’t think that I regret doing any of it.
The only things I truly regret are believing that you’ll eventually change and start reciprocating, and refusing to open my eyes to see the real truth, because the real truth is that you were never a part of me.
You were just a fatal mistake in the shape of a lesson that I needed to learn in order to become stronger, wiser, and bolder.
You were just a stranger in a chapter of the book called “Toxic Love”!
And I’m finally realizing that I didn’t sign up for any of that.
I’m finally coming to grips with the fact that I’ve been too cruel on myself and my heart certainly didn’t deserve such treatment.
I’m finally twigging that life is too short to waste my time on bullshitters, toxic people, manipulators, toxic words, lies, and deceit!
Life is too short to keep thinking about too many “what ifs” – to keep blaming myself for things I didn’t do and keep asking for answers.
Because the only true answer is that you’re no longer a part of me and you never were!
The only true answer is that I’m done with all the forms of bullshit by you and the rest of your crew out there.
I’ve abandoned trying to change those who are not ready to change.
I’m over pretending that I’m bulletproof, because I’m not.
My heart is shattered into thousands of tiny pieces that will take forever to collect again, but still I couldn’t be happier.
You know why? Because you’re no longer a part of me!
You’re no longer the first thing I think of when I wake up and my last thought before I go to sleep.
You’re no longer in my dreams and neither in reality.
I’m finally accepting the fact that I should’ve done this a long time ago, but I guess I was too scared to make a mistake.
I was too afraid to imagine my life without you and that’s why I kept accepting your bullshit.
But, today I’m proud to say that I’ve never felt better without you and I was never even in love with you!
I was in love with the idea of you. I wanted to believe that you were something you’re not.
I wanted to believe that you’re the One.
But, deep down in my heart I knew you weren’t and I knew that this day would come. And I’m glad that it did.
I’m glad that I finally realized that all this time I was neglecting my own happiness only to keep fighting for the happiness of those who are not worthy of it.
I’m glad that I finally opened my eyes and realized how cruel I was on myself and my heart that has already suffered enough.
I’m glad that I finally forgave myself for taking my happiness for granted.
And yes, this is me finally accepting the fact that I’m ten times better without you!
This is me ultimately accepting that you’d never change no matter what I did and no matter what I said!
This is me finally facing facts that you were never worthy of anything!
This is me eventually recognizing that you’re just a lesson and nothing else!
This is me feeling awesome without your toxic presence, selfish words, and manipulative nature. This is me enjoying every second of my life like it’s my last. And this is me thanking you for everything bad you’ve done to me, because if you didn’t, I wouldn’t know how strong I actually am!
See also: This Is Me, Finally Picking Up The Pieces And Moving On
