This is me finally stopping giving a fuck for the two of us. I finally gave up the wild goose chase. I resolved so many things that were unclear for a long time. I’m so tired of being the only one who is investing in our relationship and always going the extra mile to make everything work. I’m so tired of thinking and acting for the both of us.
I didn’t sign up for this kind of relationship. This is something I never wanted and definitely something I never expected to happen to me. I thought I was smarter than that, but as it turns out, you never know what awaits you in the future.
This is me finally taking action. This is me realizing there is only one life to live. It suddenly hit me that you only have one chance to achieve everything you want. So, if someone stands in your way instead of making you strive for more and making you better, they have to go. They are not making you happy and they are not working for you.
I realized I won’t waste my only chance of living the kind of life I want to live. I want everything and I won’t let you stop me from getting it. The truth is, you really don’t deserve me. Not even a bit.
This is me finally stopping trying. I’m tired of making excuses for you every time you fuck things up. I’m done fooling myself into thinking you won’t be making the same mistakes over and over again. I’m done trying to approve everything you do, just because I love you.
You won’t be getting any second chances. You’ve fucked up so many times. You drained me and my strength that I put into saving us and trying to make us become something that would last forever.
I don’t want to be the bigger person anymore. I want to stick to what I believe in and that is that I don’t want or need you anymore. I don’t want to continuously swallow my pride and bend over backward for you. I’ve been doing that for so long and I’ve been getting absolutely nothing back. Well, not anymore.
I finally realized what I want and that is not a one-sided relationship. I deserve so much more than that and I will get there. But the first thing on my agenda is getting rid of you.
This is me finally seeing the real you. I was blinded by love. I couldn’t see things straight. But, now that I have woken up from the dream I myself directed, the fog is gone. I can see clearly and I know who you really are.
I can see right through your every convincingly-spoken lie and your impeccable deception. Those empty words that come out of your mouth don’t mean anything to me. Everything you say or do is nothing but a perfectly-constructed lie.
When I first met you, you pretended to be something that you’re not. It was all a carefully made-up game only to charm me and to make me fall in love with you. It was the best performance you had done so far and I bought it.
This is me finally regaining some self-respect. This is me finally taking a stand for myself. This is me putting a stop to you being disrespectful and unappreciative. I finally realized that you will never be there for me. You won’t be celebrating when I accomplish something. You won’t be my shoulder to cry on when I fail.
You will always be somewhere in the middle and I don’t need that. I need someone who will be there at any moment of my life, whether a happy or sad one. I need someone who will make me believe in myself and who will force me to fight for what I believe in and want. I need someone who will nurture me and who will help my self-esteem to grow rather than to disappear.
This is me finally making peace with the fact that I’m so much more than you deserve. Now I know what I want. I want real unconditional love and you’re not the one who can give it to me. I want a good morning text just because someone remembered me. I want someone who will never get tired of talking to me or hearing me out when I have a problem.
I want someone with whom I will be comfortable sharing my secrets, my fears, and my aspirations. I want someone who will earn my unconditional trust. I want someone for the rest of my life. Unfortunately, that is not you.
This is me finally realizing that I don’t want to waste any more of my time on you or any other guy like you. I’d rather be single and wait for the one I know I want to spend the rest of my life with.
This is me finally giving up on anyone who makes me feel like I’m hard to love. I’m not, it’s you who never learned how to love me. But it’s even better that way because we never belonged with each other.
This is me finally taking control over my life and my happiness. This is me deciding I’m worth so much more than you were willing to admit and this is me letting go of an emotionally immature man – you.