I’ve been dating men since I was a teenage girl. And in this period of time, I’ve met numerous guys.
I’ve been with fuckboys, nice boys, players, bad boys, toxic guys, men who friendzoned me and men whom I’ve friendzoned.
I’ve been with some guys who just wanted to use me for sex and some who led me on and I’ve been in a couple of serious relationships.
There were some guys I loved and some guys who loved me.
On the other hand, there were also some guys who never deserved a place in my life. There were some guys who mistreated me and who didn’t love me enough, despite all the love I was giving them.
But I am not here to talk to you about those men.
As I’ve already said, not one of them deserved a place in my life and that means they don’t deserve to be remembered either.
I am not here to talk to you about all the other men in my life, either.
I am here to talk to you about this one guy who stands out from them all. He doesn’t belong in any category because he’s always been so special.
And after all these years, he still has a special place in my heart.
And when I talk about him like this, you all might assume that I still love him. You might think that I suffer for this man and that I am still looking for him in every man who enters my life.
But the truth is quite different.
The truth is that this was the man I loved the most in my life.
And when I come to think of it, it is possible that he is the only man I really truly loved. Yes, I’ve loved or I thought I loved other men but the truth is that my love for him always stood out.
And the truth is that this was the man who loved me the most. The only man who loved the real me and who never asked me to be someone else. The only man who loved me not despite my flaws but for them.
This was the only man who loved all of me.
The man who always looked for my good sides, even when there were none to be found. The man who loved me the same at my best and at my worst.
The man who wasn’t only my lover but also my best friend and my family. The man who took care of me and who knew the essence of my personality.
The only man who managed to change me, without ever trying to do so. This was the man who helped me become the person I am today.
But most of all—this was the man who taught me how to love. The man who taught me what love should look like and how I should be loved.
The man who taught me never to settle for less. Who raised my standards when it came to men.
The man who showed me how a woman should be treated, respected, appreciated and loved.
This was the man who made me believe that there is such a thing as true love, even when it doesn’t have a happy ending.
A man who showed me that I wasn’t foolish for believing in fairy tales or in romance.
And this is something I’ll always be grateful for. This is something I’ll always remember him for.
You might wonder how come this man is not a part of my life anymore. You might wonder how come I let this wonderful man go.
Well, the truth is that this man brought me the most happiness in my life. But he also caused me a lot of pain and he is also the man who has hurt me like no other.
But that is not something I want to remember.
Because I don’t want to think about the bad things when I think of him. I don’t want to think of the things which happened after our fairy tale ended.
I just want to remember him for all the things he gave me and for everything he taught me.
Because that is what is really important. And that is what left a real mark on my life.