Ti amo ancora, solo non mi piace la persona che sei diventata

Si dice che ogni vero amore debba essere incondizionato. Quando si ama una persona, la si ama interamente e completamente, senza fare domande.

Li amate con tutti i loro difetti e imperfezioni. Li accettate per quello che sono e non cercate mai di cambiarne l'essenza.

You love them the same through their best and through their worst. At least, that is how things should be, shouldn’t they?

Ed è così che ti ho amato. Ti ho amato, a prescindere da tutto e nonostante tutto.

E Ti amo ancora, non c'è dubbio. Ti amo even though the truth is I don’t want to love you.

Anche se combatto i miei sentimenti, in qualche modo ne escono sempre rafforzati e in qualche modo vincono sempre.

In qualche modo il mio cuore vince sempre sulla ragione e apparentemente non posso farci nulla, per quanto mi sforzi.

Voglio che tu sappia che, purtroppo per me, questo amore profondo ed enorme che provo per te ha poco o nulla a che fare con tutto ciò che sto per dirti.

But that doesn’t mean I am not going to say it.

The truth is that I don’t like the person you’ve become, even though Amo ancora quella persona.

To be honest, I don’t know how that is even possible. How can you love someone without liking them?

Well, I myself don’t know the answer but this is exactly how I feel. And it wasn’t like that from the beginning.

Mi sono innamorata di te per le tue qualità e per l'uomo che eri.

Mi sono innamorata della sua onestà, della forza del suo carattere e della sua personalità, tra le altre cose.

Mi sono innamorata di te perché eri un uomo vero, che sapeva apprezzare i veri valori e che sapeva rispettarmi.

When I first met you, I thought I’d finally found everything I was looking for.

Naturalmente, non sto cercando di affermare che lei sia stato questo uomo perfetto perché lei aveva sicuramente i suoi difetti, come li avevo io.

Ma essenzialmente sapevo che eri una persona buona, amorevole e premurosa.

And with time, you’ve changed and everything about you changed. And you’ve become everything you swore you’d never become.

I am scared to admit this to myself and to say it out loud but it seems to me that you’ve become a bad guy, a bad person, and that is something I’m struggling to accept.

I don’t know what has happened to you and if your change of character had anything to do with me.

I don’t know if this was the real you all along and if you just pretended to be someone you were not until you saw you had me but the fact is that I don’t like the man you’ve turned out to be.

The fact is that I wouldn’t like you to be my friend and that I wouldn’t like you in my life if I didn’t love you.

The fact is that I don’t like this uomo egoista che si prende cura solo di se stesso e che si mette sempre al primo posto.

That I don’t like how you’ve become indifferent toward everyone else’s emotions and the fact that you’ve become immune to the pain you’ve been causing me.

That I don’t like the fact that you’ve started taking me for granted and that you’ve stopped putting any effort into our relationship, like I have to stay by your side, no matter what.

It’s like all of a sudden you’ve become this toxic, negative and bitter man who enjoys manipulating and hurting others, without ever thinking of the consequences.

But most of all—I don’t like the person you’ve become because you keep acting like you’ve lost all respect for me.

It is more than obvious that you don’t appreciate any of my sacrifices and the things I’ve done for our relationship.

It is like you deliberately keep finding ways to hurt me and to diminish my worth. It’s like you enjoy breaking my heart.

And the worst part is that I can’t recognize you anymore. Because you are definitely not the man I fell in love with.