Ti amo così tanto che voglio che tu sia felice anche senza di me

When you hear the words “amore incondizionato”, you automatically think of love which has no selfishness in it.

Si pensa a un amore in cui si è pronti a fare qualsiasi sacrificio per rendere felice l'altra persona.

Pensate all'amore che non ha condizioni e all'amore che non chiede nulla in cambio.

You think about love in which you always put other people’s needs in front of your own, even if that makes you unhappy.

When you hear the words “unconditional love”, you think about loving someone so much that you want them to be happy, even without you.

You want them to be happy even if that happiness doesn’t include you. And sincerely, I thought I could never love someone that much.

I thought I loved some men from my past. But I’ve always wanted those men to be mine, and I wanted them all for myself.

I have to admit that I didn’t want all the best for those men when they walked away from me. Don’t get me wrong—I didn’t wish for anything bad to happen to them.

Ma la verità è che volevo che provassero lo stesso dolore che ho provato io quando se ne sono andati. Volevo che soffrissero per me, e volevo che fossero perseguitato da tutto ciò che mi hanno fatto.

I wanted them to spend the rest of their lives thinking about me and regretting the fact they’d left me. I wanted for their hearts to be broken in the future in the same way they broke mine.

But now I know that I never actually loved any of those men. I know that this was all my ego and my pride talking, and that I was hurt and humiliated by the fact that they’d stopped loving me. E poi sei entrata nella mia vita.

And the moment I saw you, I knew you would be different for me. I knew I would love you in a way I’d never loved anyone else. E avevo ragione.

But I am not going to talk to you about the love I felt for you while you were mine. Because, let’s face it—you saw that love, and you felt it. You knew very well how much I loved you.

But that didn’t stop you from leaving me. That didn’t stop you from breaking my heart and from walking away from me.

That’s why I am going to talk to you about the love I still feel for you, even though you are no longer by my side. Because this is the love you know nothing about.

You may even think that I’ve stopped loving you, the same way you’ve stopped loving me.

After all, I’ve never tried to reach out to you. I’ve never called you, and I’ve never asked you to come back.

I’ve never even confronted you for moving on with your life so fast. I’ve never told you that I resent you for being with another girl just days after you walked away from me.

E sapete perché? Perché vedo quanto sei felice. Vedo che sei esattamente dove e con chi vuoi essere.

And I see that you don’t need me to complete that happiness. I’m not going to lie to you.

It’s painful for me to see that you can be happy without me. It tears me apart to realize that you love some other woman the way I still love you.

But I’m not jealous of it. And I’m not jealous of her. Invece, le sono grata perché è riuscita a renderla felice come io non sono mai riuscita a fare.  

And for the first time ever, I don’t want you to feel the pain you’ve put me through.

I don’t want you to think of me and to feel bad about yourself because you left me. I don’t want you to regret leaving me and to feel guilty for breaking my heart.

Voglio solo dirti che ti perdono per tutto.

Because all of this is something you had to do to make yourself happy. And all I want is for you to be happy. Even if it’s without me.