God, I know You have Your own timing for doing things, but I’m writing this to let You know I’m ready for change.
I’m ready for Your blessings because I could really use a miracle after the year I had.
I’m ready to leave the sadness behind.
I can’t carry it around with me anymore. It’s becoming too heavy.
It’s slowing me down and it will end up killing me if I let it.
So, I decided not to allow pain to become too deep.
I decided that my problems won’t become bigger than me.
With You by my side, I know I am stronger than all of it.
I know You can only help me if I help myself.
That’s why I’m going to do just that.
I’m taking my life in my own hands.
I know that I have to start making different choices.
I know I have to learn to take care of me like I’m taking care of other people in my life.
I can’t keep on giving without receiving anything back.
I am going to heal this broken heart of mine.
I am not completely healed yet, no matter how hard I try to be.
It still hurts. It still keeps me up at night.
It still fills my eyes with tears.
But I’ve accepted that nothing happens overnight.
I know I’ll have days where I won’t feel so great.
I know that there will be days that I’ll fall apart again.
On those days, I go back in time instead of looking forward.
I reminisce about the past moments and wonder why it all had to go down in flames when there was so much potential to make things work.
Luckily those days are getting rarer as time passes by and strong days are lining up.
I realized that if it was meant to be, You would never allow my ex to break me like this.
I know that Your love is kind and tender.
I know that love – true love – that you’ll send my way will be as easy as breathing.
I know it will never complicate my life and make me suffer so much.
I know You have better things in store for me and that I have to be patient.
Dear God, sorry for my lack of patience.
I don’t want to rush You.
But this time of the year is making me wish for a miracle and I want to let You know I am ready for mine.
I sorted out things in my head. I learned a lot through my ups and downs.
I now know that I deserve a lot more than what I used to settle for.
I am worthy of love.
I know that now.
I’m on my way to becoming a strong, independent, and confident woman who is more than capable of making herself happy.
Thank You, God, for opening my eyes and showing me that I’m more than enough.
Thank You for making me see my own worth.
I’m sorry I used to run to You mostly for comfort and help.
I know that I should be thanking You more often for all the good things You have done for me.
Thank You for making me see that You’ve given me more blessings throughout this life than bad patches I had to endure.
It’s just that pain overshadowed them so many times I couldn’t see them.
I guess that’s the fault we humans have: Instead of focusing on the good things, on our little daily blessings, we focus on the negative.
I can finally see that, that’s why I am praying for things to change for the better.
I think I’m becoming the person You always knew I was.
I’m slowly transforming into the best version of me.
I’m working on myself and my relationship with important people in my life, and I feel like I am closer to You than ever.
I am ready for my luck to change, so please God, send a miracle my way.
I’m tired of getting up after so many falls.
Please, tell me that there are only highs for me to reach from now on.
Tell me that everything is going to be all right from now on.
I’ve had enough of all the emotional beating and I need some time to recover my strength.
I need peace in my heart and mind.
At least for now.
I know that good and bad periods intertwine.
I know that without the bad, we wouldn’t be able to appreciate the good.
But it’s time for good to finally win.
It’s time for all of us who have been hurt so severely to receive our blessings now.
Please let me be right about this.
Please show me and everyone else like me that Your plans are always better than anything we could wish for.
