Carta de advertencia a mi "futuro" ex novio

Sé que aún no nos conocemos, pero quiero usar esta carta para disculparme por adelantado. Quiero decirte que lo siento. Y espero que después de leer esto, algún día lo entiendas.

I know we will start something amazing and I know one of us is going to have to let go at some point. It’s not pessimism, but it’s my prior bad experiences that have led me to predict this will happen.

Don’t ever think you weren’t enough. You were. But you met me when I wasn’t enough, not even for myself. The last relationship made me tired, so tired of feeling. Now I am half of the women that I used to be. Y estoy esperando que me salves de mí.

I know that’s not fair. I know that I am the one who should be saving myself. I know I will hurt you because I don’t have anything else left to give you. I know…and I am sorry.

Te merecías algo mejor than being my temporary superhero. But, that’s what I need right now—someone to save me from myself, to show me that love can be kind.

Echaba de menos todo lo bueno de una relación. Echaba de menos a alguien que cuidara de mí cuando estoy demasiado cansada para cuidar de mí misma. Echaba de menos a alguien que me abrazara fuerte y que hiciera que mis problemas parecieran menores de lo que son. Sé que tú harás eso por mí.

I know it’s not fair for you to pay for all the bad things that happened in my past relationships. I don’t want to take it out on you. I don’t want all my insecurities reflected on your skin, but it will happen. Cause I don’t know how to survive any other way.

There is a slight chance you will tolerate and support me long enough and make me feel again. To make me pick myself back up again because you can’t do it for me. I have to be my own hero. There’s no other way.  Tengo que encontrar la manera de estar solo para poder estar contigo.

Ese sería mi mayor deseo. Espero que se haga realidad.

If it doesn’t, please forgive me.

I know it’s not fair. I know…and I am sorry.