I was devastated after you left me. That day will be etched in my memory forever.
I remember my friend telling me that your leaving was the best thing that could’ve happened to me. Her words pierced through my heart.
How could she say that even if she meant to comfort me? She knew what you meant to me and how much I loved you.
I truly did. I loved you more than anyone before, more than anything else in this world. Actually, you were my entire world.
I think I loved you from the very first day we met, even though I didn’t want to admit it to myself.
I never even imagined that love like that could happen to me. I fell in love with you so blindly and madly. Actually, you made me fall in love with you so deeply.
With that stupid smile of yours, you made me fall in love with you at first sight.
Oh my God, I was so foolish and naive. I will never be able to forgive myself for letting you in my life. I feel like my broken heart was my own fault.
Many people tried to warn me that you weren’t being sincere with me. They tried to tell me that you’d only hurt me. But I never doubted your love. I always trusted you and your feelings.
Why did I do that? I thought that they were just being jealous. That they didn’t want me happy.
So I chose not to speak to them anymore. I thought that they wanted to separate us and I erased them from my life.
I thought that we had something real and sincere and that’s why it was so easy for me to fight for that love. I was convinced that you were my soulmate and that we’d be together forever.
Forever. One small word but it means so much. Well, for some people it does. You should look for its meaning in a dictionary because obviously, you don’t know it.
Forever doesn’t mean until someone better comes along. It means being there for someone for the rest of time. Being with someone until death do you part.
My mistake was believing that you loved me and falling that hard for you. My mistake was making you a priority when I was always your last choice.
My biggest mistake was cutting out the people from my life who only cared for me and wanted to help me. And it was all because of you. Forgiving yourself is truly the hardest kind of forgiveness.
You see? It was all about you. You, you, you. You were the only person who was important to me. You were my everything.
When you came back to ask for a second chance, because you obviously understood what you’d lost, you said that you loved me and that I was important to you.
I’m sorry but it’s impossible for me to trust you when you never proved it.
In the past, I trusted your words but now I realize that words without actions are meaningless. Oh and about that second chance… You don’t deserve it and you will never get it from me.
After all this time, I’ve finally understood what my friend meant when she said that your leaving was the best thing that could happen to me.
I realized that you actually did me a favor by leaving me and that I should thank you for that.
I loved you too much and I would never be able to leave you, even though deep down, I knew that I should. However, you ended things for both of us and I’m glad it’s all over.
You asked me if I hated you. No. I don’t hate you and I never will. One day, you’ll realize that I’m the one who was always there for you but it’s always going to be too late for us now. I hope you’ll be able to forgive yourself.
