If you think that I’m still crying over you, you have no idea how wrong you are. Yes, I loved you, but sometimes just loving someone is not enough. I’ve realized that you’re not worthy of being my priority.
If I tell you that I felt awesome when you left, I will be lying to myself. No more lies! The truth is, there are no words to describe how I felt. I cried. I yelled. I shouted.
I wanted to disappear off the face of the earth. I couldn’t stand myself. My body was in pain. My heart was broken into small, tiny pieces, and my soul was crying for help.
They would say to me: Time heals everything, darling… I never believed them. But now it makes sense to me.
When you’re left with nothing but time, time becomes your friend in misery. You have no will to go out; you have no will to smile but you exist. You exist in time, and time brings you understanding and acceptance.
If you don’t understand or don’t accept the situation you’re in, you will not be able to move on.
I finally had time to think it through and accept the situation I’m in. So, everything that I’m about to say will be nothing but truth.
If you think that I need you in order to feel better about myself, you’re wrong!
The truth is, I never needed you, and I don’t care what you’re going to think of it. I’m not afraid of my emotions towards you. I’m not afraid of the person that I used to be.
I’ve realized that you were the one who changed me. You lured me into your toxic world that changed me.
I was no longer the person that I used to be. You made me your slave that obeys your every command, that only benefits you. I was lost.
I lost myself by obeying you. I wasn’t even aware that I was doing it. I thought that this is how it should be.
Well, it’s not!
If you think that I’m still the same person that you made me become, you’re wrong!
Some particles of the old me still exist, but I made sure to delete all the poisonous ones. Now the new me is telling you to go fuck yourself and never come back. The old me was a perfect version of me according to your standards.
You created a person who was eager to do anything, a person who had compassion and a person who trusted that you knew what you were doing. I was your perfectly designed doll that you used for manipulation.
I’m not the same person anymore, and I will never be. The perfectly designed doll no longer exists.
If you think that I still love you, you’re wrong!
I’ve never loved you. I loved the idea of being in love with you. Being in your world felt like a magical place to be.
I was so deluded that I didn’t even notice all of those bad aspects of your being. You seemed like a perfect statue that will make you feel good if you worship her.
You’re not a statue. You’re not even a man, and I was not in love with you. I realized that being in love only happens to those whose hearts reciprocate.
Everything else is just an illusion, and once you open your eyes, you realize how much it makes sense.
If you think I can’t move on without you, you’re definitely wrong!
If you thought that I was gonna call you a thousand times just to tell you that I miss you, you’re wrong. I’ve set my priority list where you no longer exist. You’re wrong if you think that I’m not capable of living on my own.
You’re wrong if you think that someone else will not appreciate and treat me the way I deserve. They will.
And then you’ll realize the mistake of letting me go.
